TW- Anxiety, panic attack
-JJ pov-
I walked a few miles down to get some firewood and some food, Kie and Sarah were meant to be with me but they went in there own directions a while back. I decided I needed a break so I sat down on a rock next to the water too low down for a while, I still felt quite dazed from the machete.
I leaned back but as I closed my eyes I saw him, the guy I call my father, Luke Maybank. I opened my eyes faster than the speed of light.
I shook it off after calming down and closed my eyes but once again, there he was, beating me, strangling me, calling me names that no person should be called.
My chest tightened and my throat started to close, I'd always had anxiety but I'd never told anyone, I mean it's not exactly something you brag about, I've never found a way to calm down, so I'd just learned to deal with my panic attacks, but this felt different.
I closed my eyes and buried my face into my hands, trying desperately for any source of air.
"JJ?...JJ!" It was Kie. She rushed to my side seeing my current state, "J? Are you alright?..JJ what's happening? What do I do? What do u need me to do?" I slowly brought myself to look at her seeing tears slowly fall from her eyes.
"I- I can't," I said not being able to get a sentence out,
"J? Is this a panic attack?" I nodded and she started stroking my back getting me to calm down, it wasn't working, nothing was working. Kie brought me into her chest, my head hiding in the crook of her neck.
"J it's ok, just focus on something like the Pogues?"
I tried to focus but my vision was blurry my mind was blank.
"Kie- I," she cupped my face when she realised how much I was struggling, the next thing I knew, my lips were against hers.
I immediately kissed back, my mind grasping that little bit of reality it had. My hand moved to her cheek, while hers both stayed on either side of my face. She pulled away and I looked at her, out of confusion mixed with amazement.
"How'd u do that?" I said, my chest untightening and my airways loosening, my hand not leaving her face.
"A couple years ago, I thought I had anxiety so I did some research and to help a panic attack, you hold your breath, so when I kissed you, you held your breath," We stared at each other for what felt like forever.
"Thankyou Kie," I said breaking the silence.
"Anytime but don't ever scare me like that ever again," she said hugging me. I let out a small laugh as I hugged her back.
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Sooooo I rewatched teen wolf again yesterday and I wanted to reference it sooooo creds to teen wolf 😂 but yeh so the next chapter of Jealous Kie should be out either later today or tomorrow. Love y'all ❤️❤️
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