SIDE EFFECTS OF YOU- D.M (discontinued)

𝑃𝐸𝑅𝑀𝐴𝑁𝐸𝑁𝑇𝐿𝑌

Yᴏᴜʀ ᴘᴜssʏ ɪs ᴀ ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀʟᴀɴᴅ
-Aʟᴀɴɪs' ɪɴᴛᴇʀʟᴜᴅᴇ • Hᴀʟsᴇʏ-

O N Y X D O L O H O V;

Pansy Parkinson was the girl to hide behind trees and jump into leaf piles. That's what made her so special to me.

That's why I felt the need  to protect her from everything

Boys, paper cuts, sharp objects, any and all things that could cause her harm.

I would go to war for her.

It was the type of sisterly bond no one could ever break. Not even ourselves.

There was a rush every time I saw her. My stomach would tighten as it would when you're riding a roller coaster, and there's a big drop ahead.

It wasn't like butterflies, though.

It wasn't the feeling Draco gave me.

It was the feeling I got when I saw my father for the first time.

She was my best friend, and I betrayed our unspoken promise: always tell each other everything.

I have no clue how I will make this up to her.

I'll take my chances with her hating me for eternity if that means I get to apologize.

I knocked on the door 5 times to less and five times too much, overheated by emotions that grabbed ahold of my brain, causing it not to work properly.

I just hope I knocked enough to seem sorry and knocked a few times short not to seem desperate for her forgiveness (even though it's the only thing that mattered)

"Pansy...are you in there?" There was no response for a long while until a quick taping shuffling muffled for the other side of the door.

When Pansy opened, a huge smile spread across her face "sorry that took so long; I had to pee" I was taken aback by her niceness. Not that she wasn't nice, just that after what she saw, I would be mad too.

"I thought you were mad?" I felt my eyebrows nit together like yarn.

"Why would I be mad? I mean...sure, you didn't tell me you and Draco were fucking, but I haven't told you things either were both guilty for our own crimes," Pansy said sweetly. Her hair was down yet had two space buns on the top of her head which had always been my favorite hairstyle of hers.

"Wait—what haven't you told me?" I said, disregarding everything except for a little point she made.

She shook her head dismissively, took a deep breath, then took me by the hands and said: "so, tell me about rich daddy Draco" Pansy pulled me over to sit on the edge of the bed.

"Ok...um, I don't really know where to start, Pans'. Honestly, when I'm with him, I'm fearless, and the second I walk away, it's an overwhelming feeling of helplessness."

"well, that's love for you, darling" The Slytherin cracked her knuckles a smiled the most genuine smile I've seen from her in a while.

The only time I've ever thought about loving Him in great detail was when he told me he loved me.

But I don't think I've ever truly allowed myself to think about it, but now that Pansy looked at me and said that the feeling that I almost mistook as a sickness that was actually love.

I
l o v e
D r a c o
M a l f o y.

And I think I have for a while.

I think I love him more than I love myself.

"Wait...do you love him?" Pansy said with her eyes widened and mouth agape. She must've noticed my almost scared expression because she grabbed my hand in hers and rubbed her thumb back a forth. "Did I ruin that realization for you?" Pansy looked like she stopped breathing.

"No, you just sped it up" I smiled kissed her forehead and left in a hurry.

I need to find Draco.

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Spoiler (kinda (not really) )

Ima be honest the part where Onyx talks about Draco {right before she realizes she loves him} it says she's fearless & Helpless. Dude I thought of fearless by Taylor Swift and helpless from Hamilton. It's not important but I felt like this chapter needed an a/n