When It Rains

are we too young for this ?

Theme song of chapter - softcore by the neighborhood

The pain from my heart transferred to my wrist. The sharp blade pierced through the flesh of my wrist leaving it dripping with blood. i stuffed a part of my shirt into my mouth to avoid making any noise.

The memories i pushed away were coming back again , that's the worst thing about bad memories , the more you push them away and the harder they will come back to you.

Knock , knock

My whole body shook due to panic. "Yes !"
My mom's voice came out from the other side "the dinner is ready sweety ! Come quickly !" Quickly getting up and replying with an "okay" i covered the wound and cleaned it.

My hands were shaking , i couldn't look at that man again. he disgusts me. When i saw him today evening my body felt numb , he looked at me in the same way he used to.
The voices of that day came back to me.

"Please stop..."
"It hurts please stop"
"Mom !!"
"Let go off me"

Jacob hayes , he was over for dinner tonight , a lad in his late 40's , he had part of grey hair mixed with his chestnut brown ones. He was a pretty fit guy at his age as he went to workout with my dad everyday. he was a buisness partner and best friend of my dad. He used to have me over at his house multiple times when i was younger. Untill that day. My mom thought it was strange of me to say that I didn't wanna be his friend anymore but there was more to it , which I couldn't bring myself to tell her. Jacob's voice interrupted "so how old are you now lilly ?" I placed the fork down and looked up "I'm 16" he nodded while his eyes were set somewhere down from my neck. "Hm you grew up so much it feels like yesterday when you were just 10 walking around wearing different costumes , haha you used to be a ball of energy. Where is that ball of energy now ? Haha"

she died , you killed her.

Others smiled including him at his remark. I just pulled my hair above my chest to cover it and continued eating.

Its okay lilly it's just a dinner and he'll be gone in some minutes.

The dinner was over since sometime and we were out there to bid our goodbyes to Jacob "Oh Timmy i think my car broke down" he stated while trying to turn on the engine which gave no response. Timmy , my father smiled "well god gave you a reason to stay here tonight , cmon get in jacob !" My dad exclaimed being all hyped and happy , but it just made it worse , my hand clenched into a fist and nails digged deep in the palm of my hand.

Maybe giving myself pain could ease it.

But , The guest room was just besides my room.

Everyone was in the living room , playing cards. While i said I needed to do some homework so i quickly came in and locked my room. I turned on my phone and saw a notification. 'Noah posted a picture' quickly visiting Instagram and looking at the picture. He was with Heather and some of his friends. But the thing was he was kissing Heather's cheek.

Are they together now ?
Is kissing on cheek normal for friends ?

I sighed and layed down on my back , by now all the noises were gone , means everyone is in their room. Fast asleep. Or atleast that's what I hope so....

His hand on my cheek is what woke me up. He had a filthy smirk on his crusty lips as he muttered "look..you've grown so beautifully darling" his hands roamed around my body.
It felt as if i was paralyzed , i couldn't do anything....

Hey guys hope you had a good time in reading , if you liked it then please vote and what do you think of Noah and heather ? Are they together or it was just a normal post. also stay safe and don't forget to drink water <3