Dave Strider [Sadstuck]

Chapter 1.

AN: TRIGGER WARNING
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My name is Dave Strider.
Everyday is the same for me.
Absolute hell.
I wake up, go to school, suffer, eat a small lunch, get home, lock myself in my room, repeat.
That was my life. My bro never checked on me. He probably doesn't even care. I don't care. I never really thought about the things I think now. It's weird...

I decide to go on pesterchum.
--turntechGodhead [TG] began pestering ectoBiologist [EB] at 3:00--
EB: hey dave
EB: everything alright
TG: yeah bro
TG: why are asking?
EB: you seemed kinda down.
TG: everything is alright dude
TG: im fine
EB: haha alright. tell me if you need anything
TG: anytime
-- turntechGodhead [TG] ceased pestering ectoBiologist [EB] at 3:10 --
I'm not fine.
John was the only person in this entire world I could trust.
I don't want him to worry about me though.
That's why I didn't tell him.
I couldn't tell him. If I did he would freak out.
-- tentacleTherapist [TT] has began pestering turntechGodhead [TG] at 3:20 --
TG: hey rose what's up
TT: i know you are upset, dave
TT: tell me why
TG: why do people keep bothering me about this
TT: your usually loud and excited at lunch and now your not talking
TG: so?
TT: your eating smaller and smaller meals. some days you don't eat at all
TG: what if I'm just not hungry rose
TG: can you just stop bothering me rose
TG: i have things to do
-- turntechGodhead [TG] ceased pestering tentacleTherapist [TT] at 3:35

Rose is smarter than I thought. Why does everyone keep worrying about me? So what. I don't talk. And it's true. I just eat smaller meals because I'm not as hungry. Food makes me feel sick.

Johns POV

-- ectoBiologist [EB] began pestering tentacleTherapist [TT] at 5:18--
EB: hey did you talk to dave
EB: im worried about him
TT: he claims he is fine but i know he is lying
EB: dammit dave
EB: what do you thinks wrong?
TT: i don't know
EB: alright
-- ectoBiologist [ EB] ceased pestering tentacleTherapist [TT] at 5:32 --
Hi. My name is John Egbert. The girl I was talking to through pesterchum was Rose.
What's wrong with Dave? He's never been this sad before. He's usually the happiest one in our small group. Jade told us that we should budge into his personal life. He's probably having problems with his brother. But dave is being so protective about it. I think something is wrong.

Dave's POV

Why.
Why why why why.
Why do they keep bothering me. Jades the only one who hasn't annoyed me.
I sit on my bed when I hear a knock at the door. Bros out right now and won't be back until later.
"Hey dave!" They knock again.
I get up to answer the door and stop in my tracks before the door. "Before I open this door. Who is it?"
"It's John and Rose" I hear John say.
Dammit. Why are they still bothering me. I look at the time. It's about 6:00.
"We brought stuff to make dinner with so we could all eat together!" I hear Rose say.
Dammit!
"I already ate."
"I know your lying." Rose says.
"Just go away!" I yell.
I didn't eat.
I don't want to eat. Food just makes me feel sick when I eat.
"Dave are you sure"
"I'm sure. I just want to be left alone..."
I didn't want to be alone. Nothing I said was true. I'm lonely.
"Alright dave. Were leaving" I hear them drop something and walk away. I open up the door and see they left food for me. I look at it for a few minutes.
Damn those two.
I rub my arms. Maybe I should take it? I take the food and bring it to the kitchen. Bro can eat it later.

I walk back into my room.
Why am I about to do what I'm about to do?
I sit on my bed. My sleeves rolled up.
Stop. Don't do it. Don't do it Dave. I think to myself.
I start crying as blood rises from my arm.