If it's not supposed to be, why does it feel right?

Part 3.

When Regulus woke up he felt bad. He didn't know why, he just did. So he decided to take a long hot shower. It wouldn't bother anyone since all his roommates were already in the great hall. Except for one, but he preferred to shower at night so he wouldn't be bothered. So Regulus went into the bathroom. He got into the shower. At first the water was really cold, which made Regulus shiver but then it started to warm up. He enjoyed the shower as long as it lasted. But his stomach gave him a sign to go eat. So he got out of the shower. He dried himself off and put on his boxers. He did forget to take new clothes into the bath with him though, so he put the towel around his waist, — so his wet hair wouldn't soak his boxers and reveal everything— and went out the room.

When he stepped out of the door the room was empty, every single one of his dorm mates left for breakfast. Good. Regulus got dressed and went down the stairs to the common room. He looked around and a few students were already back. He mumbled a fast good morning and went through the portrait. But outside the common room where two guys leaning on the wall waiting for him. "Sirius! What are you doing here?", Regulus asked who got a shock by seeing his brother unexpected, "Good morning to you too. Your dorm mate told me you were not doing so well and oh- god he's right. What did you do to your hair?", Sirius said in a wierdly fast way. "Looks Good though.", said a tired James Potter who Regulus completely forgot was there too, "thanks", Regulus said now to him.

"Yeah I grew tired of it.", Regulus said, a quick smile twitching over his face. "Okay. Uhm anyways.. it looks cool. But I was asking for you to know if you're exited for the holidays? We're still going to James' house and you're coming you realised?", Regulus just rolled his eyes and pushed past him, "Yeah, I'm going to eat now. See you later."

"He is so rude!", Sirius exclaimed, which made James grin widely. The two Griffendors went to catch up to their other friends in the library.

The next days all went the same, the teachers dismissed classes earlier and students spend the most time they could together. Regulus spend his time in the library reading and already finishing a few essays he was given for the holidays. The only time he saw his brother was at the meal times. His evenings he spend with his friends. On the last day of school Regulus spend the whole evening with packing. Which he seemed to be the only person to think about doing it. Everyone always started packing in the morning, which seemed way to stressful for Regulus. when he finished packing that night he decided to go down into the common room, because his dormitory went quiet half an hour earlier which meant his roomies were sleeping and he wasn't tired yet. So he sat by the fire, which was surprisingly still on, and started reading in his book again.

An hour later he had finished the book and put it down. It was already two a.m., and Regulus decided to go upstairs, he got undressed and put on his pyjamas and a shirt, then he laid down. But he still wasn't tired. So he stayed up for another hour just thinking. He was kind of exhausted. His panic attacks were still there and Orion and Walburga owled him a few days ago. He told them again that he was not returning home for the holidays, he did that for the past years but now this time he was about to spend his weeks somewhere not in Hogwarts. He felt quite exited. And with that excitement he finally fell asleep.

Regulus woke up at six a.m., which made him the earliest of his dormitory, even though he was the only one that had already packed. But he didn't care. He took a few clothes out of his bags again and went into the bathroom. He first went to the toilet and after he washed his hands he decided to take a quick shower. So he jumped in. The water was cold and washed the last bit of sleep off of him. When he dried off he didn't yet put on his clothes, just his pants. Then he brushed his teeth. And after he was done with that, he grabbed his towel again and dried his hair. He took his shirt and put it on. Then he took all of his stuff out of the bathroom and put them into his bags. He did not want to eat anything that morning so he decided to just start a new book, and so he did. Later he saw that none of his room mates were eating breakfast, because they were busy with packing. 'The great hall was probably very empty this morning.', he thought.

Later he was standing with Pandora and Barty at the train station in Hogsmeade. The platform was full of students, teachers and all their cases and animals. When the train arrived all the students tried to squeeze in at once to save a seat for them and their friends. Regulus, Pandora and Barty found a free compartment, which was unfortunately directly next to the Mauraders' usual compartment. And, yes they were sitting there. Sirius waving at Regulus. Regulus decided to wave back with a fake-tortured smile. Then Regulus turned around and placed his case above the seats and sat his owl next to him. Pandora and Barty sat next and in front of him and the three of them got into a good conversation. They only stopped when the women with the trolley came by, which made Regulus look up and have some short but intense eye contact with James Potter. He quickly looked down and blushed, but in the end he  decided to shrug it off.

After that Barty and Pandora had a good conversation going on their own and Regulus just kept looking out of the window.

When they arrived at Kings Cross, James' parents were already waiting for them. Mrs. Potter hugged James first, then Sirius and at last also Regulus, while hugging him she said how exited she was to meet him and that they would all have such a lovely Christmas together. Mr. Potter gave Regulus a hand to shake, and only smiled at Regulus to tell him that he is also very happy to meet him. Regulus of course exchanged the words and gestures but felt kind of wired, he did not know a thing about James' parents and did not give them anything in return for their hostility. But they did not seem to care at all. In fact they actually seemed to be happy and very nice.