If it's not supposed to be, why does it feel right?

Part 9.

When Regulus woke up that morning, the other two boys were still sleeping. Regulus was sweating very hard, and also starting to tear up, again. He had that stupid nightmare once more. He didn't want to awake the other two and wanted to get out of his clothes. So he took a shirt and a pair of jeans into the bathroom with him. He took a shower and started crying. Not loud but tears were streaming over his face. But you couldn't really see it if you didn't see the look on his face or the red in his eyes. The shower did help though. He felt more clean and more calm afterwards. But when he looked into his reflection, he saw that his cheeks were puffy and his eyes red. He decided not to care. So Regulus grabbed his clothes and got dressed.

Then he went back into his room, and sat at the windowsill, he took out his sketchbook and pencils and started drawing. At first he had no idea what to draw, but then he saw the two boys laying in his bed, and he decided to draw them and what probably went on in their heads. For Sirius, who grinned widely, he drew Remus and Sirius on a Picknick date, and even though it was just a drawing, they looked so happy to be there. James was probably dreaming of him winning a quidditch match, making Lily fall for him.

When he was nearly done with his drawing, he saw James turning from his side onto his back. 'Is he awake?', Regulus asked himself. He shrugged and kept drawing. James turned to face him again, "oh, good morning.", he said when he saw Regulus sitting there, not laying in the bed, "why are you already awake?", he asked, Regulus shrugged, "you're awake too, aren't you?", James smiled and got out of bed. He walked up to Regulus and sat down next to him, "what are you drawing?", he asked, peeking over at the paper, but it was upside down so he couldn't really make it out.

"You guys..", Regulus said. He showed James the paper, James looked at it in awe. There was him and his best friend, laying in a bed. And over each of their heads a little cloud of probably what Regulus thought they dreamed of. In Sirius Little cloud were Sirius and Remus, sitting in a glade, on a blanket. Having a Picknick and holding hands. They seemed very happy. In the Dream Regulus imagined for him, there was him on a broom. In the middle of the air. The whole seats were full of watchers, but they were all blurry and had no real face. Except for two of them, one was Peter directing the game, saying "James Potter leads his team to the win.", and the seccond person was Lily Evans, cheering at him. Smiling very widely.

That would've been a normal dream for James, a year ago. But he hadn't had any of those dreams in ages. He never dreamt of Lily anymore. Maybe because he kind of gave up on her likening him back.

"It's good. But I didn't dream that..", James said, "what did you dream?", Regulus asked, "I forgot. But it was not that.", they laughed.

Later that day, the three boys found themselves in the kitchen with Mrs. Potter, baking Christmas cookies. They had much fun. And when they were done, the cookies looked delicious already. "I can't wait for Christmas.", Sirius said when Mrs. Potter put the first few cookies into the oven. "Me neither I'm so exited.", Jame agreed. Regulus was never a huge fan of Christmas. Probably because his parents made a rule, that you were only allowed to get one present per year. They never baked any Christmas cookies, nor did they decorate. But baking these cookies, with Sirius, James and Mrs. Potter, was already his favourite thing that ever happened to him around Christmas. Regulus stood up and walked to the sink to wash his hands, which still had some flour and other ingredients on them. He washed his hands and pulled up his sleeves a bit, which he immediately regretted.

Luckily no one was looking at him, but James could see the tension building in him, just by the way he cramped his back. Regulus dried his hands and went upstairs, "I'm going to pack a few things up.", he said.

And so Regulus left the room. He went upstairs to pack the Christmas presents for the others. So when he entered his room, he shut the door and locked it. Then he grabbed the bag, which was now standing in a corner of the room, and started making piles. He had the 'broom aid kit', some prank ingredient and candy for James, and the same thing for Sirius, just with some different prank ingredient. He had just candy and ingredients for pranks for Remus and Peter. And he had a muggle book for Lily. The rare herb for Severus, a book about impressing others when your lazy for Barty. And a necklace for Pandora. He threw in candy to all of the presents, and for Remus he added extra chocolate. Then he wrote the names on the packed presents, so he wouldn't mix them up. And sent the first one away with his owl. And when he was done, someone knocked on his door.

It was just Sirius asking if he would play a game with them, and so he did.