judas' kiss | yuta + winwin ✅️

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𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐓𝐞𝐧

𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚎, 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚎
𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚊 𝚠𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚔𝚒𝚍𝚜, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖 𝚍𝚊𝚒𝚕𝚢

Xiaojun and Yangyang sat in a cafe as sun started sink down in the sky.

"How are you feeling, Yangyang?" Xiaojun looked worriedly at the omega who was starting at his own hands with no expression.

Yangyang gazes how the ceiling light bounces off the skin of his hand. The fine creases in it seems to make weird polygonal designs. His eyes just find his hands interesting at the moment and his mind wants to be left alone.

But Xiaojun was finding this silence irritating. It wasn't like in the hospital. He wasn't waiting for someone else. He wanted to talk to Yangyang and not Jürgen. He exhaled, keeping his cool to the lack of response. "Hey, talk to me."

"What is there to talk?" Yangyang looked up from his hands and met the alpha's gaze. "You came here for Jürgen, not for me." He was disappointed and sad. Now that he was off the morphine from the hospital, sober from any medications, he realized how fucked up is his life.

"Stop behaving as if it's a different person!" Xiaojun frowned.

Yangyang just looked away. "I would if you would stop treating me differently." His eyes were now stinging. "I am a fucked up person. You fell in love with me, but wrong me. You don't love me. You love Jürgen, not me. It's not my fault that you fell in love with him, but I am him too. The way you talk to me when I dissociate into Jürgen, is completely different from the way you talk to me, the original me." He looked at the alpha with glossy eyes. "Am I that unlovable?Is that the reason you left me three years ago in Seoul? And then you show up in Miami like it's no big deal."

The alpha inhaled deeply before taking in the omega's hands into his large ones. "You are misunderstanding. Yangyang, I came here  to find you."

He furrowed his eyes at the statement. "What are you saying?"

"The reason, I left you three years ago is because you confessed. I didn't hate you. I was already in love with Jürgen, but when you confessed to me, it felt like I was cheating. And I needed time and space to think."

"So you left me for three years?" Yangyang scoffed, looking away. "Great."

"I am sorry for that. That was a dick move. And I know that it won't heal anything whatever happened in three years. But I am back." He saw the impatience in the omega's eyes. "A-and I love you, Yangyang."

The time stopped for the omega. Did this man actually say those words? Or is this some sick prank? "Whaaa....??????"

"I mean it, Yangyang. Jürgen and you are the same person. And now that we have mated years ago, I would like to celebrate that bond."

Yangyang chuckled. "Do you think this is a joke? Are you mocking my mental illness? Well, I don't believe you."

The alpha was desperate now. "Please, don't do this to me. I love you for God's sake!"

"Earn it. I am not marrying some guy who disappeared for 3 years after I confessed. You have no idea, what I went through. And before you go around accusing me of hoeing around with my boss, let me tell you something." He leaned in, his gaze stern. "My boss was there for me when you weren't. So don't you disrespect that man."

"Look I am sorry-"

"Sorry?! Please, that's what you say after all these years? You know that's a useless words people say when they don't know what to say. Cut me some slack." Yangyang blinked back his tears and sniffed.