FOR YOU || Enhypen's Sunghoon

03

( Minsoo's POV )

“ Second place again ?! What is going on with you and your brain , Kang Minsoo ?! Can't you be even a quarter like Minhee ? Look at your brother ! He's the best student in school ! What did you do in school ?! ”

I'm tired .

I'm really tired of this .

“ Go to your room and study all over again . You can't sit with us at the dining table unless you get number one in class . ”

I walk back to my room , locking the door just in case someone tries to console me with good words . Comforting words don't work on me anymore , it would if you were talking to a 5 years old Minsoo .

I'm 18 now .

I wouldn't even believe in ghosts if someone talks about it .

I got second place again this time , and it's odd that Sunghoon came in fourth . The first place is Jake and third is Jay , the two who would usually come in third and fourth .

We got our results back this morning and all I saw was Sunghoon smiling and winking at me after he was announced to take the fourth place . He told me that the further gets , the less competition I feel , and more boyfriend-like for me .

He's a good boyfriend , no matter what he did and what he does . He is a good boyfriend for me . I thought that our relationship won't even last a week without me being mentally ill , but we did it . A year and 1 month into the relationship , we're still going strong .

I was afraid of the relationship , mostly because I'm mostly mentally unstable , but Sunghoon is a real one . He's the most loving guy I've ever met .

Prepares breakfast , lunch and even snacks for me at school .

His bag contains more than one roll of tissue paper .

A cooler just in case my nose bleeds .

Essential oils just in case I got dizzy from being overworked .

Medicines . My medicines in his bag .

You can't tell me that he's not the guy everyone wants .

I don't think I'm good enough for him . I've seen girls in my school drooling over him , having the hots for him , but he chose to like me out of everyone else when he could have gotten a better partner . I'm not enough , not for him , not even for myself .

You can't imagine when I see him running towards me , the fear . The fear of one day , all of this would come to an end . One day , he would realise that I'm not enough . One day , he could find someone better than me .

I've grown so clingy , and I do realise that . I can't go on without him , I can't do anything without Sunghoon . I can't survive a day without seeing his figure , even shadow .

But he can't.

He can't be there to see me .

He can't get himself ruined .

I can't watch his life crumbles .

I can't see him cry .

He's too precious for my thoughts.

He's too precious to even be in my life .

Looking at myself in the mirror after washing my face , I can't help but to cry over Sunghoon before sliding down to the floor .

I'm only holding on for him .

For him .