FOR YOU || Enhypen's Sunghoon

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From : MinsKang02@mail.com
To : KangMSboyfriend@mail.com
Subject : I Love You

Hello ? Hi , boyfie ! I'm trying my best to write this sounding as happy as I could , because you're probably attending my funeral by now and I'm sorry about that .

Sunghoon , when I first met you in middle school , I never see you as a competition . Not even once . I see you as my saviour . You made me realised that it's okay to not always succeed . You're very carefree , and I love that about you , mostly because I wasn't .

I've been watching over you since then , admiring you from afar because I was afraid of hurting you .

Yes , Sunghoon . I fell first , not you .

I'm grateful that you were the one who had found me almost passing out at the stairs . I don't know what to do if it was Minhee who had me found . Of course , my parents then grounded me but it's okay , because I atleast got to see you closely .

Okay , our love story aside , let me cut to the chase .

Sunghoon , my dear Park Sunghoon , my love , I'm sorry .

I know that this is very serious and I shouldn't be doing this , but I can't fight those demons in my head anymore . I really can't , but I don't want you to lose me either . I don't want to do this , but they keep telling me that I should .

You're the only thing that has been stalling them for so long , but now they're out of hands because I'm no longer happy with myself .

The thoughts of not being good enough for anybody , downgrading myself and all of that , makes me want to die .

I love you , Sunghoon . I really do , more than you did . I would give the world to you , but I guess now there's no more world for you , huh ? You once told me I'm your world .

I'm sorry for being a coward , and I'm sorry for running away . I'm sorry that I'll cause you pain for the rest of your life , but this is too much for me to bear .

I'm sorry for being selfish .

It's not your fault , Sunghoon . It's no one's fault but mine .

Let's meet again , okay ? I'll be the one finding you in our next lives .

Park Sunghoon , my little troublemaker .

I love you , so much .

Goodbye .