The End Of My World

Chapter 4

   Well, I'm homeless now. As I was trying to figure out what I was supposed to do with my life. I came across a group of people sitting at the Park. It was about 11:00pm at night, so they must be some bad people. I decided to walk up to them because maybe I could make money or something. I was simply just strategizing. As I made my way over to them, one of them must've saw me because they were yelling something at me. "Look, It's a cracker!" They were laughing. Look man, I get that I'm white, but you don't have to point it out. "You can see her so easily in the dark, It's like she's a lamppost." Come on man! That one didn't even make sense! They kept going on about how white I was, so as a comeback, I rolled my eyes. I must've done the complete opposite thing I should've done because they started getting louder. One of them called me a bitch, and a broke ass whore. As I started to walk away before the situation escalated, one of then came up from behind and grabbed me by the hair. I wasn't much of a fighter, and I was still hung over from the night before. But I'm not one to back down from a fight. I turned around with my hair still in the person's hands and started punching. I thought about all the things that would've happened if I didn't punch, but boy was that a mistake. Once I started to fight back, they all started to gang up on me. I should've ran away, I could've avoided this whole situation, but no, I had to go and try to be nice! What the hell man!

   They were gone. They left me on the grass, covered in my own blood, and a bit of blood from their fists. It was official, this was the worst day of my life. I had nowhere to go. Nothing to do. For the next three hours, I'm not sure if it was the hypothermia kicking in, but I was contemplating suicide. I had nothing else, I was a mistake, I knew that it was impossible for me to change. After all, I was just a drunk cracker that had nothing to offer the world. But that's when I got the idea to text my ex. That was it, perfect! Luckily I still had service on my phone, I had a whole month left. So If I just text him, convince him, things would go just right!

   2:45am: Caroline: Look, I know you want nothing to do with me, and for that I'm truly sorry. I didn't mean to ruin everything. If I'm being honest, things were much better when we were talking. You don't have to message back, but it would be nice if you did. I miss you. And again, I'm really sorry for ruining everything. I'm sorry.

   2:50am: Bryce: Listen Caroline, you have got to stop texting me. I have decided that I need to get over you. I'm sorry if that sounds harsh, but it needs to be done. I have to get over everything we had, and you should too. It's for the best. I know that sounds harsh, but it needs to be done. I wish you all the best in the world. Be safe, and I hope that life brings you all the things you wish for in life.

   I decided not to say anything back. Even if I did, it would only lead to failure. I had to come to terms with myself. No one wanted me anymore. The last time that I talked to my friend Leslie, she got pissed at me for some past things that I said about her, even though they were completely true. I couldn't believe that the world could hate me so much. Did I do so much bad in the world that I deserved this?