Lines in my head

Before

I saw you today
Walking in the mall
I know you saw me
You put your head down
And kept walking
Pretending you didn't see me
So I continued to walk
Remembering all the times before that you ran to me
Hugging me with all the life in you
Telling me how happy you are to see me
But this time it was different
You were a different person
And I'm tired of being hurt
It's no use to push yourself where you're not wanted
It's just, the funny thing is
I gave you what you have today
The life you have
I helped you get that
But once you got what you wanted
You pushed me aside
I'm not afraid to tell you that it hurt me
But I shouldn't
Because you shouldn't know how much you affected me
How much your words took a plunge to my soul
I don't need to be in your life
The toxicity you share with the world
The hurtful words you say
It's not worth my time
So as I watched as you willingly walked away from me
Putting your head down like you've done the many times before
And as your back faced me
I remembered all the memories we shared
And I looked at the person you've become now
I'm scared to tell people you were my friend
But you were
And I'll always remember the person you were before
The person you were
The person you no longer are
~m