𝐞𝐮𝐩𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐚 || 𝐡𝐪 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐟𝐢𝐜

𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞. <𝟑

dear you,

yes you. my love.

hey you.

as always, thank you.

i always start these notes with the biggest thank you to you. and that will never change, because there is nothing that i could say that's more important than a thank you. forever, and from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

now, i want to talk about 'euphoria' as a whole. to be honest, when i look at this book, it's most definitely not my proudest work. compared to number buddy (where i poured my whole heart and soul)...euphoria simply can not compare. not even a fraction.

i feel like i made this book back when i was still new to the haikyu fandom, and oh god—i want to apologize about whatever the fuck what wrong with me back then, LMFAO.

all of the most cliché, overused jokes, all of the stereotypes... fucking hell. i'm so sorry. i look back in disgust, and i'm so beyond sorry.

but at the same time, a part of me is glad that i had that phase. because now, as i look back, i can see growth. i can see how far this book grew, my writing grew, and, above all else, how much i grew as a person.

yes, it'll be always true that euphoria is not my best work. i don't deny the absolute mess that this fic was, and i honestly don't feel sad that it's ended. (some things should just stay in the past LMAO)

sometimes (many times, actually) i have these urges to take down euphoria from my account—for countless reasons. one, because when it comes down to it, the overused jokes and stereotypes are honestly detrimental to the fandom. and two, because i hate seeing what i wrote in the past. maybe that's just an author thing, or maybe it's because i'm not all that proud of what's even here.

but, i think the reason i still leave it here is because...it's a documentation of a journey. (oh wow i sound like one of those motivational speakers—sponsor me babes👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩). and that's the part i don't want to delete, since as much as i hate the phase, it was still something i lived through for a few months of my life.

i don't know if what i've said even made any sense (tbh i decided to finish this book instead of doing my 20+ assignments...hahahah i'm internally crying), but the key point of it all is:

thank you. thank you for reading, and following this journey.

after i ended euphoria season one, i had these giant plans for a big, dramatic season two, where so much will happen. but... i didn't end up following through with that plan.

the main reason for that is because i realized how valuable time is. and how, as i grow older, the less time i have.

to be honest, euphoria never really had a plot—it's basically just a comfort fic for whoever wants to live out and enjoy time with our fav hq boys.

and that's okay. not every book needs a plot.

although, maybe i should rephrase that: every franchised book—the ones with themes and meanings and emotions—needs a plot.

because euphoria doesn't really have any plot or plan to go off of, it'd be mostly a waste of i continued spending time writing chatfic dialogue.

don't get me wrong; i love writing chatfics and living the daydream w our favs...but it doesn't really help me improve as a writer.

personally, i want to write other books that have a structured plot, and are those that can be more heartfelt and allow me to connect with my readers more. (ie like how number buddy was).

i knew i could never leave here without giving a proper ending, and without saying a proper goodbye—since i truly grew so much over the period of this book.

i'm glad i finished it off with a mini series of season two (writing the crossover w number buddy was SO MUCH fun i think i love crossovers now lol)...and even tho season two was only a mere six chapters and not the huge franchise i envisioned...

i still hope that some part of this book was able to make you smile, or happy.

(esp since i was NICE for once and didn't pull any angst cards ... unlike number buddy LOL)

it's truly been fun. and i leave here with no regrets.

i like leaving things completed, since it wouldn't feel right if i half-assed the ending. and it just feels so perfect to end this book on the same day, just two years after it was first created.

i'm excited to continue to write more and focus on some new books. some new plots, new and clean chapters. a clean slate, if you will.

and if you're still here and reading this...you're a real one fr. and i love u sm.

again, thank you so so much. for everything. i can't say that enough.

before i dive into a whole new story and commit myself to a whole new plot, i think i'll be taking a small hiatus, at least for a little bit. i'll have more info on my announcements on my profile, i promise! but...

until i see you all again...

you are the cause of my euphoria.

-di<3

finish date: 02/06/2022.
publish date: 08/19/2022.
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with eternal love,
author-chan. <3

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| end of euphoria: author's note.
˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ the end.<3