Letters To Them

Chapter 57

*1 1/2 months Later*
Graces POV:

I wake up in Shawns arms. I came home from the hospital a few weeks ago and decided it would probably be best if I stayed in Shawns room. It's like I feel safer here than in my own room, alone.

I look at Shawn, sleeping peacefully. The way his eyes twitch when he sleeps is adorable or the way his lips part slightly as he breathes.

'It's rude to stare you know,' he says, without opening his eyes. I look away blushing. He stretches and opens his eyes. 'How long have you been awake,' he asks? 'Not long,' I answer. He pulls me closer and I rest my head in the crook of his neck.

His bedroom door opens Bd Taylor peers in. 'We were thinking about going to do a small meet up at the mall,' he says, 'you in?' Shawn looks at me. 'You go I'm going to visit Cam anyway,' I say. 'You sure,' he asks? I nod. 'Yup I'm in. We'll be down in 10,' Shawn says. Taylor nods before walking out. I roll out of the bed and slip on my ugg boots. Shawns gets out of bed too and walks into his bathroom. I walk out of his room and across the hall. I go into my own room and memories flood in. It egret everything that happened that night.

I go over to my wardrobe. I look through my clothes and decide on:

Black leggings
Loose maroon t-shirt
Brown ugg boots

I then throw my hair up into a messy bun. I walk out of my room and into Cams. I go over to his wardrobe and find an oversized hoodie. Well actually it's just a hoodie if his but for me it's oversized. The sleeves hang over my hands so I roll them up a bit.

I then walk down to the living room. Everyone's sitting in there waiting for me. 'Ready,' Shawn asks, standing up? I nod. He comes over and grabs my hand. He gives it a slight squeeze. This is going to be the first time I've seen Cam at all while he's been in hospital. I couldn't visit him, knowing that this was my fault. And honestly I'm scared. I don't know what to expect.

*At The Hospital*

I open the car door. 'We'll pick you up at 1,' Matt says. 'Okay,' I say. I close the car door and watch as they drive off. I then go inside. I walk over to the elevator and go up to floor 5. I find Camerons room and slowly push open the door.

The nurse I had when I was admitted to hospital after I was kidnapped is here. (A/N: Chapter 40) She smiles at me. 'Grace is it,' she says. I nod. 'Well it appears Cameron is doing really well. He's still in a coma and he'll be in it for a while but he can hear you. He won't be able to respond but he'll still hear everything you say,' she tells me.

I go over and sit down in the chair next to him. 'He's a strong one your boy. He'll pull through this,' she tries to reasure me. I smile at her. I grab Camerons hand. I start talking.

'So Cam I don't know if you can hear me but I need to talk to you. The night you were in the accident I tried to kill myself. Shawn found me and I guess called the ambulance service. I'm really sorry. I'm a mess Cameron. I really need you here with me because I'm breaking.
I miss the way you smile eat me all the time. I miss your crazy and immature attitude.

Cameron Alexander Dallas I need you. And not just because you saved me but because I am in love with you. I love you with my whole heart. I know that it's just a small 3 words but I am in love with you. You are my everything Cam.

And I don't know how long I'll be able to hold on for longer. On the outside I appear fine but on the inside I'm broken. I need you to fix me. To mend my broken pieces. I love you Cameron and I hope you wake up soon,' I finish my little speech. I don't realise I'm crying until I feel the salty liquid on my lips. I stand up from my seat and look at Cam. I place my lips onto his cold ones. I pull away and check my phone.

It's only 12:40pm. I decide to text Matt and tell him that they don't need to pick me up:

Me: I'm leaving the hospital now. I'll be fine so don't worry about me. Love ya dino 😘

I put my phone into Camerons hoodie pocket and walk out of the room. I walk out of the hospital and down the street. I walk to the park where I used to go when I was younger. I walk over to a secluded spot and sit down. I start singing the first song that pops into my head.

*Singing*

I gotta keep myself in check sometimes
Cause I tend to dream real big sometimes
The fancy outfits
And the sparkly awards
My name in lights
The people lined up at the doors
But I gotta remember
To take it one step at a time

...

If there was a rope stretching up to the sky
With all my dreams at the very top so high
I get so caught up in everything around me
Moving quickly
I forget to cherish
Every single moment I recieve

I forget about the climb
I just wanna get there
Don't wanna wait in line
Even though it's so clear
That I'm called to use patience in this journey that I'm on
I know that I'll come out alive
And it'll only make stronger
Oh oh
While everybody's focused on the hive
Oh oh oh oh
I'll be wondering why

We seem to think
That you'll be happier
Once you reach the top
You'll have it all
But I'm living for right now
Cause what if tomorrow never comes
I'm not waiting
I'm not waiting
No
People seem to think
That you'll be happier
Once you reach the top
You'll have it all
But I'm living for right now
Cause what if tomorrow never comes
I'm not waiting
I'm not waiting
For the confetti to fall

I'm not waiting to be happy
No no no
No no no
No
Ooh yeah

*Not Singing*

I hear clapping and look up. There's a crowd surrounding me and clapping. A little girl comes up and hands me a few daisies. 'Thanks sweetie,' I say, hugging her. The crowd slowly clears until one lady is just standing there.

'While you were singing I called my husband,' she begins, 'he's a record owner and he heard you sing. He was wondering if you wanted to go down to his studio and record so he can hear you live?' 'Are you serious,' I ask? She nods. 'I would love to,' I say.