Letters To Them

Chapter 20

*1 Week Later*
Grace's POV:

I wake up in the spare bedroom. I've just gotten used living with Cam and Nash. Cam took me round to my house a few days ago and we collected my things. Matt is still staying here for another 2-3 weeks.

I lazily hop out of bed. I go into the hall bathroom and take a quick shower. I wrap a towel around myself and walk back to my room. I change into:

A black t-shirt
Denim knee-length shorts
Red vans

I go downstairs and see Matt in the kitchen. 'Hey munchkin,' he says laughing. I raise my eyebrows. He comes over and hugs me. 'Sleep well,' he asks? 'Yeah,' I say. Cam walks into the kitchen. 'Morning Gracie,' he says giving me a hug and kissing my forehead.

'You hungry,' Cam asks pulling some cereal out of the cupboard? 'Yeah,' I say. Matt passes me a bowl and I pour some lucky charms into it. I sit down at one of the bench stools and start eating. I look up and see both Cam and Matt looking at me. 'What,' I ask?

Matts POV:

'Whats on your arms,' Cam asks Grace. 'Don't worry,' she says. 'Grace,' I say. She sighs and shows us her arms. We gasp. 'See I told you. I just knew it,' she mutters, getting up and running up to her room.
'What was that about,' I ask? Cam shrugs? 'Maybe it's a sensitive issue,' he says.

*A Couple Hours Later*

'Gracie where going out. We'll be back soon,' Nash yells up to her. She hasn't been out of her room since breakfast. Us guys walk out and go to the car. Me and Carter go in one car. Nash and Cam go in the other as we all drive to the airport to pick up the rest if the guys.

Grace's POV:

I hear the guys leave. After breakfast I stormed upstairs and basically cried. They probably hate me now. How could anyone love or even like me? The suicidal girl that cuts. I'm worthless.
I decide to go on twitter to fill in time. Bad idea. I log on and see my entire timeline is basically hate.

(A/N: I'm just making these twitters up)

@Cams_girl: Ew @GracieKingsleyXO your such an attention whore

@KayleeDallas: Why do the boys bother with you?? Your such a fake @GracieKingsleyXO

@Cashew_lover: who is this @GracieKingsleyXO?? She's such an attention seeking fag

@DaphneSGrier: @GracieKingsleyXO Ew. Your so ugly! The world would be so much better if you just killed yourself

@HaileeWoods: just kill yourself already. I have spare bleach if you need any @GracieKingsleyXO

There's so much more like that. I throw my phone onto the floor. Then I stand up and walk over to my desk. I open the bottom draw and pull out a razor. I walk out into the hall bathroom. I put the razor to my skin.

1 Cut: not being good enough
2 Cuts: being ugly
3 Cuts: being a problem
4 Cuts: not being perfect
5 Cuts: being worthless
6 Cuts: being useless
7 Cuts: being born
8 Cuts: meeting Cameron

I clean up my cuts and go back into my room. I lie on my bed and cry. I wish I was dead...