𝐀𝐫𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐞

𝐁𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠

A sudden sting felt deep within,
No words could ever define
Feels like a block of ice,
This is the fragile heart of mine.   

When I breathe in the fresh air,
The scent of Petunias feels just too sweet.
The sharp glass might be piercing my wrists,
Yet I still can feel my lively heartbeat.

So sitting by the window
Gazing at the silver moon,
I carry a mind laden with black clouds,
And eyes weeping a silent monsoon.

The clouds get blacker day after day,
And kill a part of me, much to my dismay.
I am a prisoner of my own mind.
Not knowing that the angels I believed in,
Were the demons making me blind.

The gentle waves hitting the shores,
were supposed to be calm.
Little did I know it were the cyclones,
Sending me a silent alarm..

My memories were meant to be cherished forever,
Filled with beautiful moments and my biggest endeavours.
But the devil decided to have some fun.
It ruined a life where dreaming had just begun.

Whispers of the devil become louder in my ears.
Every word uncovers the old hidden fears.
No one seems to be around,
Yet in his poisoned touch,
I slowly feel drowned.

You saw it too,
Well behind my desperate eyes.
I was begging for you to stop,
I was pleading for you to hear my silent cries.
Yet I couldn't say a word,
For I had a family to protect.
So I tried to endure it well,
But alas! I lost my self-respect.

It was the devil who played dirty
But destiny was blamed.
My body and soul,
Wasn't yours to be claimed.
But you took it anyway, proud and brave..
Mom, I wasn't at fault, for not being saved!
Yet I was the one who was asked to behave,
When the devil clearly.. treated me like a slave.

But now the devil won't scare me
For I'm a Phoenix,
I'll rise from my own ash..
So devil, wait for me,
Watch how the tables will turn,
Watch for your own games to backlash.

I will pick up the broken pieces of my soul.
I'll muster my strength,  hold the reigns and take control.
You might be the one who broke me yesterday,
But today I won't tremble, I won't fall prey.

So let these words be engraved in your head,
You sure can rip me apart, you sure can paint me red ..
But I'll be breathing,
These tears won't shed..
But I.. will be breathing,
I will never be dead.