I miss it
The days I was sick
But skinny
The day where I tried to purge
But never could
The day I was thin enough to be worth something
The days where I threw away my school lunch instead
Of eating it
The days the I felt pretty
And now that I've recovered I miss it
Everyone lectures me on eating healthy
But no one saw how much it hurts
To be told to watch what your eating only after recovering
How could I not wanna go back
Back to being skinny
Back to the days of not eating
Only filling up on water
Spitting my food into my napkin and hoping no one noticed
How I wish I could go back
How I wish that I wasn't such a fat disappointment
