Penchant

7- life doesnt make sense

✿ A S A M I ✿

AS THE THIRD DISNEY
film finally finished (not that I wanted it to finish, if anything I never wanted it to end) I looked over at calum who was furiously texting on his phone, a scowl on his face.

"So? Little mermaid?" I questioned, it was his turn to chose a film, usually he enjoyed Disney film night, but today seemed off for him.

"Yeah, sure, whatever" he spoke, his voice distance.

"Well damn okay" I grumbled, I for sure did not need bad vibes today.

I had figured my way to distract myself from Ashton, not threw drinking, nor drugs, but to watch multiple Disney movies, where there were happy endings and true love (as true as it can get)

Really all I did was glare at the tv remembering when I had that type of relationship, when I would sacrifice my tail for legs to see him, (never happened to me but totally wouldn't do it because a tail is so much cooler)

"Cal?" I questioned, genuinely worried about him because he looked furious.

"Mami, not now please" he pleaded, making me even more curious.

"Shut up, you know I'm not gonna stop asking, so what's wrong?" I laughed, knowing calum for twenty years is hilarious because he actually thinks he can hide stuff from me.

"Okay so michaels texting me about coming to ash's place ya know for band practice and I'm guessing comfort towards my other friends but I really don't wanna go, because I'm certain if I go his face will be deformed" I swear I could feel the tension in the air, it was so high, couldn't cut it with a knife even if I wanted to.

"You will not hurt his beautiful face, over my dead body hood" I growled, my body filling with rage because I knew that Calum's intentions were soon to be true.

"Why do you still defend that jerk? Seriously mami, you have to stop" he screamed, my body going weak as he screamed, I knew I was defending someone who didn't deserve it.

I just couldn't help it, I was (still am if I'm being honest) in love with him, there was no reason for me to defend him, but after four fucking years, it sorta becomes a habit, I hated it, I hated him, I hated feelings, love, everything.

"I don't know" I screamed tugging at my brown locks in anger, tears swelling up in my eyes as I stomped my foot on the ground in a childish matter

"I don't know" I whimpered, tears spilling out.

"I'm in love with him cal, it isn't just easy to forget him after four years, I mean for gods sake the boy had me whipped all over his very long finger, it's defiantly not that easy to forget it all, him, us, or what we used to be." I cried, I never realized how much it hurt to be away from someone for so long knowing he isn't yours, I guess I spent a lot of my time ignoring all signs of grief and sorrow.

"Hey, hey, it's alright, it's okay" I was pushed into Calum's strong embrace, his arms tightly wrapped around my waist.

He picked me up bridal styles and carried me to the bedroom, laying me gently down, (best part is I don't even have to change cause I'm literally still in my PJ's, so was calum)

He came into bed, gently wrapping his arms around my waist, as I cuddled into his chest.

"Why does he have to hurt me like this calum?" I smiled painfully My tears silent,

"Is it something I did? Is there anything I did wrong?" I sobbed, I felt sorry for calum, because I know how it feels to see you're best friend sad and not know what to do or how to help them.

"You were perfect to him mami, he was just too blind to see it" he spoke, lips gently kissing my forehead, as I grasped harder onto him.

"Promise you won't leave to beat him?" I wiggled my pinky out from under us out to show him that I was waiting for his pinky to latch with mine.

"Mhm, okay, go to sleep mam's you're tired" he smiled, his thumb rubbing soft delicate designs on my skin.

But I guess he lied, and I should have known, he didn't promise or latch our pinkies, because later that night I felt him leave the bed, kissing my forehead before apologizing, leaving me all alone, and cold.

And that night was the first night in almost two weeks where I had cried myself to sleep.

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Basically just so u know what happened that led to cal leaving to beat ash's face!!

sorry this took long, I didn't like the first version so I deleted it and rewrote it, and each time I rewrote it wattpad would delete it.
Also I published this chapter yesterday but weird thing is I woke up today to find out is isn't published like wattpad get ur shit together mate.

My friend(s) shipped me with ash anD iM SO ASH AF NOW U DONT UNDERSTAND (I'm lashton AF tbh)

Vote: team
-ashna (aka me & ash) (aka your mom & dad)💅🏼
-or ashami..🚮

-janna💍