Skinny Love // Michael Clifford 5SOS

8- Everything I'm not

~ Michael p.o.v ~

My parents went out for dinner and instead wasting my time at home, I went to the local bar. Just after I enter the bar, I saw...Mikayla ? what's somebody like her, doing in a place like this?

So I make my way to approach her.

" Miki? Are you drinking? You told me that you..wait! did you come alone or did you bring all your friends ? " I asked, in confusion and look around.

" oh hi Mikey ! see ? I'm Miki, he is Mikey. he's adorable isn't ? I mean..look at those colorful hair. He probably bold when he's old but he didn't care at all..ahaha.." Mikayla rubbed my hair and talk to the waiters.

" fck! Are you drunk? what you drinking ? Miki , what was your thinking ? " I hold her shoulders.

" shh..do you hear that, Mikey ? they're playing our song..it called Everything I'm Not. I remember we wrote this couple years ago when ...awww..the sound of the guitars in this song was phenomenal ! Olly did an awesome job with guitars. I guess she is the best guitarist ever in this whole wide world..ahhaa. shh..listen to it.." Miki puts her finger on my lips.

Oh no, Don't go changing, That's what you told me from the start

Thought you where something different, That's when it all just fell apart

Like you're so perfect, And I can't measure up

Well I'm not perfect, Just all messed up

I was losing myself to somebody else, But now I see

I don't wanna pretend, So this is the end of you and me

Cause the girl that you want, She was tearing us apart

Cause she's everything, Everything I'm not

It's not like I need somebody, Telling me where I should go at night

Don't worry you'll find somebody, Someone to tell how to live their life

Cause you're so perfect, And no one measures up

Yeah all by yourself, You're all messed up

I was losing myself to somebody else,But now I see

I don't wanna pretend, So this is the end of you and me

Cause the girl that you want, She was tearing us apart

Cause she's everything, Everything I'm not

Now wait a minute, Because of you, I never knew all the things that I had

Hey don't u get it, I'm not going anywhere with you tonight, Cause this is my life

I was losing myself to somebody else, But now I see

I don't wanna pretend, So this is the end of you and me

Cause the girl that you want, She was tearing us apart

Cause she's everything, Everything I'm not

But now I see, I don't wanna pretend, So this is the end of you and me,

Cause the girl that you want, she was tearing us apart

Cause she's everything, Everything I'm not

The song end and the next song was playing.

" that's right Mikey, 'cause she's everything..everything I'm not.." Mikayla eyes full with tears.

" hush Miki, tell me. Whats wrong ? " I asked, stared at her eyes.

" I know, I'm nobody compared to Olly, Morgan or Rynn. They all pretty outside and inside, I guess that's why people love them more than me. I mean, I'm not a 'hot' girl. I will probably never turn him on, or take his breath away, or even impress his friends with the way I look. But I can make him laugh and make him feel wanted, and sometimes I can be really fcking cute. I really wish that could be enough, just once.." Mikayla smile at me, I knew it was a fake smile.

I beamed at her.

" Miki, so you think that you're not hot ? screw that! You're beautiful, your perfect. Just the way you are.."

She chuckles and I'm getting confused.

" I saw him, smooching with Olly. They both kissing each other while sitting on my drumset. Do you know how fcking much it hurt ? " her voice trembled.

" shit! Ashton ? with Olly ? " I blinked in astonishment.

I'm glad that I has no feeling towards Olly anymore but, I didn't know that Ash do.

Mikayla nodded her head as she start sobbing.

"people were right when they say loving someone who doesn't love you back is like waiting for a ship at the airport..but do you know how hard it is just to walk pass him, hide my feelings, act like I don't care, and that I'm fine ? and you know what Mikey ? sometimes he make me feel like I actually have a chance with him, but when I try to take that chance, he make me realize I never really did.. " her sobs grew louder.

" Miki, listen here. You think he's what makes the sun shine, but darling, he's not. He's what makes your eyes tear and your heart bleed. He's the thoughts in your head that rip you apart and, gosh, I know you love him but..he's killing you..I don't like what he did you "

I grab her into my arms, I don't know why, but I think its the best thing I can do for her at the crucial moment like this.

" but, I cant blame him either," she looked up at me before adding,

" I don't hate him and I wont. I'm not going to blame someone for not loving me back . I'm not going to be mad at someone for not wanting to be with me . And I'm not going to call him asshole for not finding what he's searching for, in me. it sucks , but I cant hate him for being human.." she stared at me.

I nodded my head and beamed, she adding..

" and one day, if I happen to do the same thing he does to someone else, I hope the other person is as understanding as I am, too. I hope that they understand that people don't always choose to hurt others, even when they do.." she kinda whisper it from my arms, as I gently rubbed her back.

" you just so nice, Miki. I hope you'll find someone better than him..trust me, you will.." I said to her, but theres no response.

" Miki ? Miki ? aww..you've already fall asleep? I guess my chest is the perfect pillow for you..ahah.." I talked to myself.

Suddenly, theres a group of hot teenagers come to us.

" OMG ! it that Michael from 5SOS and Mikayla from Skinny love ? what are they doing here ? awww...are they dating each other ?"

" Do they come here much? I swear I've seen their faces before.."

And a hot chick with red dress ask me,

" Hope you don't see me blush, but I can't help but.. tell me what's your story ? are you guys dating each other? "

I beamed to that question then Mikayla kinda move her head a bit and I could hear her mumbling in her sleep.

" don't ever let me go..."

I was shocked but then I whisper to her.

" I won't let you get away.."

The fans still waiting for the answer while I just winked at them , get up from the chair and carry Mikayla to her home.

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( A/N : this is where its all starts ;-) do you ship them? What should their ship name? )