Asylum (Mcr Fic)

Nodes

I wake up playing with a loose string on a canvas restraint, just breathing.

My thoughts gather together slowly. Im in the padded room again. My head pounds and I roll over to look at the ceiling. Even the ceiling has large padded panels.

Its silent. I can see things happening outside but I cant hear anything other than my speedy breaths.

Im so angry at them. Im so angry. I pull at the restraints and grunt as they dont give way. Ive got no reason to be angry. I pull my arms and kick my legs but nothing happens other than searing pains through my limbs. Theres no point trying to escape. Ill wait it out.

As soon as I realise theres no point fighting my emotion changes. I cant help but cry into the padded wall panels. My arms wrap myself im a hug involuntarily and I curl into a ball. I feel so sick. Im incurable.

I was out of the padded room for so long, I was doing so well.

Why cant I go outside?

Help me.

I lie for what seems like forever, staring from panel to panel. Suddenly theres a large metal clunk the signifies the door is opening. A doctor enters and grabs my arm, lifting me to my feet.

"You have your daily appointment with doctor Way now." He says.

He practically drags me to doctor Ways office before throwing me though the door. I skid in onto the carpet and the door is slammed behind me. I land in a pile, curled up, on the floor at the doctors feet. I stay still- I cant use my arms to push myself to standing.

Theres a silence and I can feel him staring at me.

"I need to undo your straight jacket... If you dont mind." Doctor Way says from above me.

"Take it off." I state, rolling face down on the carpet.

He unzips it before giving me a hand to stand up. The relief of having my arms in use again is amazing. I stare at the jacket on the floor before looking up to the doctor again.

He kicks it to the side before pulling out something on wheels.

"Take a seat." He says.

I sit down by his desk and he wheels the machine next to me.

"Daily Im going to measure your heart rate and blood pressure and some other things." He mutters to himself whilst sorting out the machine.

There are wires and nodes and Im slightly nervous about how much its going to hurt.

"Do you have a vest on under your jumpsuit?" He looks up to meet my eyes.

I nod and he gestures for me to take my jumpsuit to my waist. I feel weird as I unzip it and fold it down to my waist. His eyes flicker over to me from time to time but he radiates something calm and calculated.

"Okay Ill start at your back." He hums.

He places a node on my back, just above where my vest ends. I can feel it stick to my skin. He pulls the back of my vest down carefully to place another node down and shivers run through me. I can see my red, teary eyes reflected in the mirror-like frame on his desk. Finally he places another at the bottom of my back.

"Okay." He mumbles to himself.

I can hear his voice is deep in concentration as he walks around to my front.

"Tell me if you feel uncomfortable."

He places a node on the side of my neck, using a hand to hold my neck still. He continues down to the top of my chest and presses one down there. I look to the side as his face is so close. Ive never been this close to someone before.

"Do you mind lifting up the bottom of your vest a little?"

I lift it up to bare my stomach and he places one just under my bra. My skin twitches as he presses down.

"Now you just sit for a minute whilst I measure."

I put my top down and fiddle with my hands. I cant feel anything happening? Am I meant to be shocked or something?

"Youre quite thin, you know that?" He says after a moment.

"They said that if I stopped struggling I would stop burning away my body." I say.

"Mhm." He nods. "Are you uh, nervous or scared or... Tense."

"Maybe."

"You need to relax, sugar, your heart is racing."

When he says sugar my heart practically skips a beat. "Uh, sorry."

"Nothings going to shock you."

I close my eyes and take a breath.

"Ill continue with the other things whilst the machine is working."

He moves his seat in front of me and takes one of my hands, turning my wrist upwards. Im assuming he ignores the cuts up my arm from earlier treatments as he uses two fingers to press along my skin, looking for... something.

"Okay this might sting a little... Although..."

Before I can ask why he pricks the skin on my palm, taking some blood. I breathe in fast at the sting and he immediately presses the pricked area with his thumb, stopping the pain.

"I thinks thats all."

He removes the nodes carefully, brushing the area of skin after removing the node. I put my jumpsuit back on properly, zipping it up. Theres a silence.

"Ill take you back to your room."

He walks to the door and opens it for me, placing his hand on my lower back to lead me. We walk down the hall and towards my room.

"As you were sedated you were holding some paper." Doctor Way mentions. "Maybe we can talk about it tomorrow?"

"Okay." I say, stepping into my room.

"Good night Seven."

I nod once as the door is locked behind me, just breathing.