I Was First

Chapter 47

I couldn't really tell if it was day one or not, if we actually are already together or something, all I'm aware is that we exchanged confessions and there was this short silence before one of his parents called him.

He had to go home as what his Mom told him through the phone call, and therefore, we had to bid each other farewells. I don't know if he was obliged to confirm me about something, or more like what we already are, but he sure left me in question.

However, it was a bit of a relief that he had a reason to go, because if it wasn't for the phone call, I don't have any idea how long will the silence last.

Perhaps it would've been more awkward if we stayed inside my room more longer, I mean, we just said all the secret feelings we've been hiding from each other, and for obvious reasons, it would totally change our friendship.

I was actually planning on messaging him, something about how things are going to end up with the both of us. It totally almost drove me to my insanity and it went like..

hey josh, about the confessing and stuffs.. are we good?

joshua hong, are we now a thing or something?

why did you leaveee?!?!?

After reading all the sentences that I was attempting to send to him, I would end up cringing and would feel so weird, and until I fell asleep, I ended up not sending him anything. It was so easy to type those crazy words, but trying to tap the send button was torture.

I reckoned that I was maybe getting way too ahead of myself, but he did say that feels the same way as I do and even told me how long has he been feeling that way and it was a whopping seven years.

Who knew that there was someone actually having feelings for me for that long? And to top it all off, it's my bestfriend, he's the one who mostly saw my bad side, the weird me, he saw the broken me, and he had to put up with my attitude, my craziness and perhaps my unearthliness.

He's probably the person I'm most grateful for, he's annoying at times and he doesn't think twice when he wants to ignore me, but he's still the nicest person I've ever met, atleast for keeping me.

I feel so thrilled and happy thinking about him. I just want to run around in a field and scream my excitements out. I basically am closer to the life I used to think that would be just a fantasy.

I sighed in relief as I closed my eyes with a wide smile. "What a time to be alive.", I said under my breath. Even though nothing has been confirmed yet and I still don't have any clue about what we truly are, I just feel so happy knowing that he likes me back.

I snapped out from my daydream as soon as I heard knocks from the other side of the door, no one was saying anything from outside and it was just constant knockings. I hopped off my bed and made my way to the door only to open it and see my younger sister standing there.

"You have gotten so weird lately.", her eyebrows furrowed along with her upper lip pulling up. "It's quite concerning."

"What do you mean?", I asked, because for some reason, right now, I think I'm not doing anything wrong.

"You're smile is creeping me out. Do you even know your smiling from ear to ear? You wake up so late, it's almost noon, just so you know."

I could feel my face instantly frowning. "So, you knocked on my door, made me jump off my bed and walk all the way here at the door just to nag at me?"

She shook her head. "If you were just normal, I wouldn't tell you stuffs like this. And, for your information, I had to stop watching my most favorite show, ascended the stairs and walked all the way here outside your room just to tell you that we are going to the Hong's.", It must've took her a lot of oxygen to say all that, that she exhaled after the last word.