I Was First

Chapter 44

Third Person's POV

No matter how much he wanted to look away to lessen the throbbing pain in his chest, to not feel it anymore, his eyes still keeps making its way to her like how it has always been, he can't keep his sight of her back that was walking away, farther and farther away until his eyesight reached its limit, and there goes the girl he has been pursuing.

Dokyeom turned around to the other direction, starting to walk his way back inside, now all alone. Deep in the depths of his heart, he wanted to run to her even though he was the one who told her to, and perhaps he did regret giving up on her, telling her that he wouldn't wait for her anymore because even if it will still take her some more time, he was still willing to wait.

Yet even in the end, he can't always deny the fact that she likes someone else, his bestfriend, and Joshua happens to like her too. Dokyeom knew well all the unspoken words and feelings between them, and his conscience were telling him that he should atleast do something about it and make a way for them to know what was what before they find themselves drifting away, even though deep inside, that was the last thing he wanted to do.

And because of the thing between them that he felt responsible for, he ended up letting her go, and by that time, he reckoned she way probably on her way to him already.

"Oh dude, I finally saw you!", With his head slightly bowed down, he looked up to see his cousin Eric. "I've been looking for you everywhere, where have you been?", His cousin was smiling so wide, and he reckoned he had to do so too, even just slightly.

"Outside. At the garden.", Dokyeom answered, making sure his voice was still upbeat even if he's tired of it for today. He was feeling exhausted already and he clearly knew the reason why.

"Oh.. well, I looked for you everywhere except for the garden.", Eric joked with a giggle. Dokyeom would laugh if it was any other day, his cousin and him would joke almost everything, but that day was a bit different.

"Anyway.", Eric started with a smile and as if on cue, a waiter holding a tray of drinks on a wine glass walked passed them and there Eric grab two glasses. "Would you care for a drink?", His cousin offered one glass to him.

Dokyeom rarely drinks alcoholic drinks, but that glass of champagne being held infront of him looked nothing but a way to perhaps drink away the pain. He accepted the drink and slightly held it up towards Eric.

"Cheers?", He asked, and his cousin excitedly clinked it. A toast for his cousin's birthday, and a toast for a broken heart.

The both of them ended up continuing their drink on a tall table, calling for the drink holding waiter every minute. They talked all the time, catching up and in between, Dokyeom was downing all the champagne in all his glass, while Eric already stopped not awhile ago.

Eric found it weird that Dokyeom seemed like he wanted to get drunk and wasted but didn't really asked him about it and just continued talking to him as it appears to him that Dokyeom was still sober and sane.

"Where's your date by the way?", Eric asked as he realized that it already took awhile for Dokyeom's date which was Hiah to be with them.

"She left.", Dokyeom simply answered while dazing at the content of his wine glass that he was blankly swirling.

"What? Why?"

Dokyeom glanced up to meet Eric's face with his drowsy eyes and his forced devastated smile. "I realized that she can't be my date forever so I stopped."

Eric was indeed confused, he didn't know what Dokyeom exactly meant, but by the look of Dokyeom's situation, he was thinking that maybe he was broken or anything like that.