the notes and the letters

5

Jean's pov

After Dinner, I went straight back to my cabin only to see Marco fast asleep

I said to myself "so much for saying goodnight to me"

I flopped onto my bed and opened my draws on where I kept Marco's letters, and I grabbed on and read it, to my surprise it was dated a couple of days after Trost

Dear Jean,

I am not so sure if you are alive, or not
But today I came to a realisation... I am indeed a coward. After Trost I ran away faking my death all so I could protect myself and the thought of what I am putting my friends through, never occurred till now, I am sorry for being a terrible friend but, if you were to find out what happened to me, you might understand but, I doubt it. I am still processing after what I heard the conversation between those two, I am still in denial about it, I am talking about two individuals

one of them said "if things go bad I'll have to get my titan involved"

The other said "if it does go to plan, Eren would seal the hole I worked so hard on"

I asked them about it but they brushed it off as a joke, I told them that they shouldn't be joking like that at a time like this and took off, while I was going to find another squad that's when I put the two together, those two were responsible for the fall of Wall Maria

Next thing I knew I was being dragged into a Titan's mouth asking them to have a chance to talk about it

But I just heard the Armour titan say "Why is Marco being eaten"

Unfortunately, that's all I remember, but I should end this letter by telling you that I miss you a lot,

Kind regards,
Marco

Not gonna lie, I got a bit emotional while reading, me tearing up to me being angry at those two individuals, I looked over to him he was still there sleeping peacefully, it's only been a month after Trost, the emotions he must've been going through thinking I had passed away. I just wanted to go to him and hug him, but maybe it's for the best... He needs his sleep Afterall

And so I went back to sleep, 30 minutes later I woke up again with curiosity taking over I grabbed another one which was written 2 weeks after Trost and this one is... It touched my heart

Dear Jean

I honestly hope to god U don't see this, but ever since Trost I have been thinking about you a lot and, I know I have said this in my previous letter but recently it has been disturbing my routine, I can't get anything done, it's like a musical itch, doing my head in but at least it's you and not an asshole named Reiner.

But the way I have been thinking of you, it's just so wholesome and confusing, cause I only looked at you as a friend and not in this way like as in recently, I don't know how to explain it, my older brother Axel said the reason I'm having those thoughts is that I could be in love, I laughed in his face denying it, but I couldn't help to think... What if he is right?

But if U do end up reading this, go ahead and laugh all you like, it sounds so stupid doesn't it

Kind regards

Marco

Again I looked over to Marco who was still sleeping peacefully I warmly smiled, I mean the note sounds stupid but a good stupid, like in love stupid.

The fact Marco considered that he might've been in love with me was a bit stupid but, what if he is actually in love I wouldn't mind it at all and it could help me try and get over Mikasa, I did admit that he was cute, but sometimes best friends will think each other are good looking like Bertholdt and Reiner thought each other were good looking, Annie and Mikasa thought each other as well.

So it would be normal for me to find Marco good looking, but I wonder what were those wholesome thoughts Marco was having about me that made his older brother think that he was in love, not gonna lie, I was flattered, but I just went to bed and fell asleep

The Next day, I woke up to seeing Marco making his bed

I said tiredly but with a smile on my face "morning pretty face"

He turned to me and had a huge smile he said in his usual innocent, cheery voice "Morning Jean, did you have a good sleep"

I said in the same tone "yea did, what about you since you went to bed quite early after beating up Eren"

Marco groaned with annoyance "well to say he was already on my last nerve, I told him something yesterday and at first, he was a bit confused then he made a joke about it and laughed in my face, so I would beat him up"

I was kinda taken sat up and said "well he took quite the beating from you, worse than Levi, but the thing was... You were practically dead tired"

Marco's eyes widened he said very quickly and lying "uh, I didn't hit him that hard"

I said dumbfoundedly "Freckles, blood came out of his mouth, and when you stomped on his nuts he screamed so high pitch that my ears were about to bleed than you walked off as nothing happened and afterwards he couldn't get up for at least an hour, that's how much pain you coursed"

Marco rolled his eyes and put in a phony smile and lied (again) "come on Jean your exaggerating"

I shook my head then he changed the topic and we just spoke for hours, and I honestly wonder if he'll tell me that he likes me or he just brushed it off and thought nothing of it