Wind is Lost

So I thought.

I thought I was courageous,
I thought I was kind,
I thought I healed,
I thought I am fine.
Little did I know,
My mind would shatter.

He, the cold-blooded killer,
Seeks me, whose mind fell apart.
My father said, they shall laugh,
My father said in silence,
She is insane.

I wonder who are 'they'?
Why would 'they' laugh at the one in the light?
Now I know they're the society,
My father is the society,
My friend is the society,
My brother is the society,
Everyone I held dear to is the society.

I thought I had someone,
Turns out I am alone.
Turns out the reality i created
Is nothing but false hope.

I was running away from the society,
Had no idea the ones I love were it.
I am confused, what shall I make of this?
Where should I go?

I was born different,
I was born the way I am,
I am not the version of me in your head,
Henceforth, I have no one but me.
My eyes shall seek tears for no-one but me.
My heart will love no-one but me.
My head will ache for no one but me.

I thought they were special,
I thought I did not care,
But it's all gone now.
No one is special but me,
I don't think for you anymore but me,
Because this world has no care.