Credence Levi x O'C

Chapter 14

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Knock knock knock

"Who is it?" I asked while getting up from my bed making my way to the door.
"Just open the door already." A familiar masculine voice spoke, of course I recognized him but I was surprised by his little visit.

I opened the door to meet his beautiful pale face.
He was holding a tray in his hands.
"Hey, um..? What is it?" I asked with a shaky tone.
"I wanted to check up on you, and I got you something." He replied while putting the tray on the table next to my bed.

"I wanna talk to you... so when you finish your food, I'll be waiting for you in my office. Sounds good?" He asked me while moving away heading to the door.

"Y-yeah sure... wait, Levi!"
"Hm?"
"Thank you, for the food."
He nodded in response before leaving and closing the wooden door behind him.

"Name and business?"
"Rose Shree, you requested for my presence."
"Come in and close the door."
I did as he said.

"Have a seat."
I seated myself on the chair in front of his desk.
"So, tell me about everything that has happened today Rose."

"Training, the lunch incident shit, visited medical and ate the food you got me."
"Hmm great let's start with each part of your day one by one, shall we?"

"I'm pretty confused but sure?" I replied with full honesty.
"In training, you said you were coming to my office so we can discuss something bothering you, we also need to talk about what happened during lunch as will as your visit to medical."
Ohh, so he asked me about my day to know what topics we should discuss..

"So what's going on? Your life is messed up now, isn't it? That's only gonna make your mind just as messed up.
So tell me, which topic do you need to talk about the most in order to feel relieved?" He asked while placing his papers down and shifting his gaze from the tidy desk to my face.

I stayed silent for a while trying to motivate and encourage myself to talk.
"No? You don't want that?" He frowned
"It's just, I don't really feel like talking anymore, I'm just very tired.
I think all I wanna do is forget about it and get my mind of it."

"I see. Would you like some uh- some... tea!?"
It sounded like he was just trying to change the topic now, and I'm really grateful for this.

"Yeah definitely..."
I suddenly feel super guilty towards him.

I don't even know why? He was trying to help me and I just brushed him off.
Fuck me, I should've at least thanked him for even bothering to check up on me.

Even today's morning, he checked up on me and made sure I would pay him a visit so we can talk about my mental/emotional well being.

I never expected Levi to actually care? Or even notice when someone is not doing well. He's very gentle and kind hearted, I can tell.
He just maybe doesn't know how to show it. However, he's putting so much effort trying to express his empathy and it shows.

"Levi..."
I finally decided to break the silence surrounding us.
He was still making tea for us.
"Hmm?" He replied with a hum, while using the spoon to mix the sugar and lemon drops he had put in the tea.

"I wanted to thank you.. You're very impressive, you're a very interesting person and I didn't ever imagine myself trusting anyone the way I trusted you especially after every social experience I had to go through.
For some reason and out of nowhere, I found myself trusting you unconditionally.
I've always felt safe whenever I'm around you.."

I decided to let it all out, actually not all.
There's a good old amount of words I kept for myself because maybe it's too soon to be said? Or it's gonna be so random and out of the blue, right?

He stayed silent, not making a single move.
He even stopped putting peppermint in the cup and stared into nothing.

He looked surprised, it almost seemed like he has never heard such words.
You can't tell me he has never been appreciated before? That can't be true! He's a very important, indispensable weapon for humanity.
So I'm more than sure about the fact that he's been praised countless times.

He remained silent..
"My apologies, didn't mean to sound weird..
I should go." I felt super embarrassed.
Getting up from my chair, I immediately opened the door and walked out.

I found myself standing outside Erwin's door.
Why was I here? Was I too carried away to even notice my own direction?
Seems like I made it here, I may as well knock, right?

Knock knock knock

"Name and business please?"

My stomach dropped out of fear and embarrassment, I even wanted to walk away and not respond.
But how disrespectful is that? I'm not a child! I can't just knock on the COMMANDER'S door and run away like a little kid!
I definitely should stand my ground and act mature.

"Rose Shree."
I didn't even say the reason behind me coming to his office because honestly, I don't even know.

"Oh come in!"

I opened the door and stood in front of his desk while rubbing my arm nervously.
"Take a seat Rose. It's really nice having you here."
He greeted me with the softest, sweetest smile I've ever received, the moment I saw his face, all of my worries disappeared and a warm hug of comfort welcomed me with open arms.
This man is so precious.

I took a seat and smiled back at him still not knowing what to say.
"Hmm, would you look at that beautiful smile I see! But unfortunately Behind that smile something's troubling you, isn't that true?"

"Well yeah... To be honest I don't even know why I came into your office in the first place.
The thing is, I wasn't feeling well and suddenly, I found myself here, looks like my legs knew where to guide me." I spat sarcastically while flashing him a smile.

"Oh dear, are you okay darling? I'm so glad you found yourself here."
"I am okay don't worry. However, my day wasn't easy, everything crumbled down on me today."

He got up from his seat behind the large desk.
He walked up to me and held my chin with his huge hand, raising my head up to meet his ocean eyes.
"It's okay Rose, even if you felt like the entire world is against you, I never will be a part of that world. Got it?"

Is this what receiving pure love feels like? Should I believe what I'm hearing? Or am I gonna wish I never believed him, I always end up regretting all of my choices when it comes to my social life, should I still give it a try?

What am I supposed to do? Should I accept this love?
I fucking need it but what if it ended up ruining me?

Maybe I should give it a try. What if it actually was good for me but because I was scared I just decided to push it away? No I'll take it! I shouldn't let fear get the best of me.

Btw the type of love we're talking about here is just friendly ;)
Bye bye lol.