January 19, 2022
Today wasn't so bad, I just feel numb. I'm tired but I don't think I can sleep, my writing was so messy. I've been so alone lately. My current love interest just doesn't understand the romantic aspects of a relationship and that breaks my heart. I feel empty like I'm in the background of my own life. I think we're forming another alter. Nicotine and sex/pleasure have been getting me through this terrible breakup. None of the alters have been out lately, I hope they take over soon, I'm tired of controlling the body. The not eating is starting to get concerning. I'm gonna head to bed. It's late and I need sleep. </3
