staring at those eyes
black orbs full of love and hate
I stared at those eyes, and those eyes stared back at me
and I looked at the girl in front of me
the girl I cherished with all my heart
the girl I despised more than words
she was o so beautiful
her black hair fell like waves of silk satin off her shoulders
her almond eyes full of stories to tell and time to love
her body is not too fat and not too skinny
her clothes are simple but fit perfectly
the girl began to morph
and she became o so wretched
her hair was an oily mess that moved like sludge on her boxy shoulders
her eyes were crooked and full of pain
her body is not skinny enough and way too fat
her clothes out of place on her body
I continued to stare
seeing these two sides of this girl who seemed o so familiar to me
as she morphed between these two people, each side stubbornly persistent
I continued to stare
and stare
and stare, and maybe just maybe, I liked the one with beautiful silk satin hair and alluring eyes
I wanted the girl with the just-right body and the simple clothes
I wanted the girl who was nice to herself
I wanted that version of me
