Numb. It seems better than crying better than talking. It is better than expressing any genuine emotion because being numb doesn't affect anyone but me, and I deserve it. But the numb doesn't go away anymore. doesn't go away like it used to after those good soup days. it simply doesn't. it inhabits more of my mind. it stays and spreads until I can't get rid of it. the numb doesn't let me cry. doesn't let me talk. doesn't let be show true emotion. it won't let me feel anything but numb.
