Lemon boy~ Max x reader Camp Camp fanfic

Chapter 2: Secrets

Max's POV:
As y/n walked away I rubbed my eyes trying to hide my guilt. I felt someone punch my shoulder a little harder than in a playful way. "Max... why would you... how could... what's wrong." Neil said in shock I could tell he himself felt bad for y/n.
I felt even worse when I saw the disappointment in Neil and Nikki's eyes. I guess they thought I changed for good.
"I uh... I told you so? I didn't mean that I just wanted to prove a point. Fuck whats up with me today?." I said looking at the ground.
"You're acting crazy Max, what the hell is going on? You're going to apologize sooner or later. I don't care if I have to force you! I still want to be friends with her." Nikki said, almost angry.
"I just couldn't take it, okay?! Y/n is so... she's just... ugh I can't be around her without feeling weird, it's like she's trying to kill me with her mind! I mean she's mysterious and kind, funny even. I should want to be her friend but she's not like you guys... I can't see her in the same way." I said trying to defend my mean actions against her.
"Wait Max it kind of sounds like you... like her... like... like her like her." Neil said while his eyes darted around the forest as if he was trying to figure out if that's what was really happening. "No way! I just met her. I will apologize though I feel... bad."
Nikki and Neil looked at me confused then they both gave me a weak smile. "Why don't we give her some space to cool off or she might just use her ninja moves on you Max haha." Nikki said, trying to lighten the mood.
I smirked for a second before I remembered I would have to face this girl and actually apologize... gross.
I need to clear my head... I might actually be going crazy, my thoughts didn't make sense nor did my actions.
I decided to try and be friends with Y/n if she forgives me that is. I'm not saying I like her, but I still wonder why she makes me feel so weird. I shook my head and continued to open the bomb shelter with Nikki's help.

Time skip ———

BOOOM!
Nikki, Neil and I hid in the bushes about 30 feet away from David's cabin.
We covered our ears as the fireworks went off. There was a ton of smoke but not too much damage. I frowned in slight disappointment until I saw David sprinting towards his cabin freaking the fuck out.
I heard him scream my name, so I booked it back into the woods, Nikki and Neil following behind me. God I love pissing him off.

Y/n's POV:
I lied on my bed staring at the tent wall, I lit my joint and started smoking it. Every hit was as deep as possible, I wanted to finish it quickly.
I glanced at the floor and saw my blood stained hoodie. I got up and kicked it under my cot.
I wore my black hoodie I stole from the mall. I hate stealing but when it's a big corporation it's no big deal.
I heard a muffled boom and then the screeching of fireworks, I jumped a little surprised, but then remembered what Max had planned.
I lied back down and sighed, why was he so mean? Why did he think I was some monster hidden behind a mask? Why did I say he was garbage... I hope he didn't mean the shit he said, I know I didn't. My thoughts raced. I thought about how fast my heart was beating when I yelled at him, I could barely contain myself. I thought I was getting my anger under control, but of course this cynical psycho had to push me to my breaking point.
I sat back up and decided to write in my journal.
I started writing:

In one day, I think I managed to make a few friends, well this one kid I thought was pretty cute turned out to be a crazy asshole.
I almost want to give him another chance because he seemed scattered today. I mean his closest friends were shocked by things he said so that tells you something, but I can't tell if it's actually me. What if there is something bad or wrong inside me?
I know this girl Nikki definitely wants to be friends at least, and the other kid Neil seems smart and pretty nice all in all.
I had to smoke to calm down, it all became too much. I might have to quit cutting too and the asshole Max almost saw my arm today. It's getting too risky. I might just have to throw my blade away, but what's to stop me from using something else?
I don't feel like eating or sleeping. I can't even relax, and I've been lying in bed for hours. Today is Saturday so there were no activities which was great because I still don't know how this place works yet.
I get this weird feeling when I'm around Max. I'm not sure if it's because he's an asshole or because he's attractive. I share a tent with him and it's about 4pm not sure when everyone goes to bed but I'm nervous for when he does, I don't want to face him after our fight, but I know I have to.
I honestly wonder if he would ever want to be my friend. If he wasn't so scattered of course. It's funny how it's only my first day and I'm already scared for when summer ends. My mom is batshit and I don't want to live with her. Sending me away out of anger instead of love, I wish she was kinder to me. I wish she could show me some fucking respect and at least tell me if she's going send me to a summer camp.
This camp seems alright though I'm going to try and enjoy it while it lasts. This stupid fucking rant didn't help me at all.