Solo Leveling X TBATE | Looking For Purpose (Rewrite)

Lonely Victory

A/N this ff is being rewrite if you want to read thee rewrite just scroll down. The rewrite has slightly more decent grammar.

Sung Jin-Woo POV

As I watched my world burn, the people I've sworn to protect were slaughtered because of my battle with the monarch. I stood in front of the kneeling Antares who had swords impaled all over his body, his body a bloody mess.

"Why?" I asked in a grim tone holding back my urge to kill him

"Why? Shadow Monarch you've known me for a long time, and you still why ha ha ha ha WE ARE MONARCHS, WE DESTROY EVERYTHING! FOR THAT IS THE SOLE MISSION OF OUR EXISTENCE." Antares said laughing while coughing blood

"You disgust me at least you're not getting your rest," I said coldly as I summoned the other seven monarch

"You're my last piece in my collection," I said in front of his face forcing myself to smile

"Argghhh" He shouted as he tried to explode himself

Before he could end his life I teleported beside him and slit his throat, killing him before he exploded canceling the explosion. I waited and waited until a black aura appeared around his bloodied corpse.

"ARISE " I said coldly

The air around me became silent, suddenly the mana around us was dense as I felt Antares manifesting himself becoming something he once greatly despise. A shadow soldier who is loyal to me. As the shadow finished manifesting the soldier knelt in front of me as the other monarchs soon followed. All eight of the monarchs kneeling circling me in the center. But I didn't feel anything, not even the hint of relief nor happiness for killing him. The only thing I felt that day was loss, emptiness, loneliness, pain, suffering, and grieve as all negative emotions clouded inside my mind. The Brightest Fragment of Brilliant Light came down bowing to me, followed by six other rulers.

"We thank you Shadow Monarch for disposing of the corrupted," He said

"At what cost," I said coldly as I began losing control of my emotions, I felt IT that day the same feeling Antares felt before. I wanted to create chaos, destruction, and death. As I struggle to calm myself I let my killing intent loose making all the seven rulers shiver over the smell of death making them take a stance ready to fight. As my vision slowly turned purple, and black as I had lost control over my emotions

"Please calm down Shadow Monarch," The Brightest Fragment of Brilliant Light said

"Calm down?!" I shouted releasing an impulse of pure mana explode around me knocking the rulers back

"HOW CAN I CALM DOWN" I shouted as I knelt to the ground my mind eating me away, my negative emotion swallowing my common sense.

"The cup can no longer be used, and this was the best outcome we have," I said grimly my eyes glued to The Brightest Fragment of Brilliant Light

"Yes but because of this many other worlds were saved, " The Brightest Fragment of Brilliant Light said

"It seems like you don't fucking understand something. I WAS BORN HERE." I said as more killing intent leaked out of me.

The rulers could only stand there in silence as I once again try to control my emotions, but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't control it until I felt a tap on my shoulder.

"Ashborn" I mumbled

"You've done all you could child, none of this was your fault. None of this was their fault. It was just rotten fate" Ashborn said, his words calming me down to a certain degree