Light of My Life ~ Alex Albon

Back

We went out, saying goodbye to people and we went to the Red Bull garage. Christian saw me, handing me the crutches I asked for. "Thanks. I'm going to be going somewhere, but I'll be back before tomorrow." I said, kissing his cheek. "Call if you need anything." He said, nodding at Sebastian. "Where is Alex?" I asked softly. "His room." Dad said, holding back Sebastian. I didn't say anything, and just went to his room. I didn't knock, just walking in. I sat down on the couch, dropping my crutches on accident. Alex got startled turning around. "Your going to be okay." He said, coming over and hugging me. "They called earlier. Said she went into a coma. Her probability of survival is 2%. They said I can either pull the plug, or chance it and see if she awakes." I explained quietly. He didn't say anything, but held me close. "I'm having Seb take me to the hospital so I can say my goodbyes. I don't want her to be in pain anymore." I said, sighing out. He caressed my hand, kissing my head.

I sat there for 10 more minutes before saying goodbye. "I'll be here for FP2. But I might not be at the hotel tonight." I explained, seeing him nod. "I love you." I whispered, kissing him. He kissed back, pulling away shortly after. "I love you too. Call me if you need anything." He said, my only response being a nod. I grabbed my crutches and backpack, leaving the room. Seb was waiting outside of the garage. "So, which hospital?" He asked. I told him, getting in the car slowly. He got in, putting my crutches in the back. I leaned back, resting my head on the window. The car ride was rather silent, none of us needing to say anything. It started raining, sending a comforting feeling to me. It's like the sky was feeling my exact emotion every-time. I closed my eyes, taking in the cold air that was radiating off the window, exhaling softly. We eventually arrived as the hospital wasn't too far. 

As we pulled into the hospital lane, I opened the door. There was a roof over us, so I didn't get soaked. I pulled myself, shutting the door and leaning on it. Seb came around with my crutches, giving them to me. "I'm guessing you want me to leave, which is fine. But if you need anything, I'm here for you as always." He said, bringing me into a soft hug. I hugged back, exhaling softly. "Thank you." I said, kissing his cheek. He gave me a soft smile, watching me go into the hospital before driving off. I sighed as I looked around. Last time I was here, she kicked me out. But she was asleep now. "y/n." I turned around to see my mother's nurse. "Have you made a decision?" She asked, making me nod. "Let me say my goodbyes first." I said, going to her room. I went in, standing by the door. I saw all the wires and tubes attached to her, a shaky breath leaving my mouth. I slowly went to her side, sitting in the chair. 

I grabbed her hand, giving it a soft squeeze. "Hey, mom." I whispered, my breathing becoming shaky. "I missed you. A lot." I continued, a tear falling. "I don't know why you got this, but it's not fair. The universe took away our special moments." I said, some more tears falling. "Do you remember when I would always go outside with dad, and play with the car? You always got so mad when I came back in with dirt all over me. You'd always grab me and put me in the sink, along with Mr. Webby." I cried, holding her hand to my mouth, giving it a kiss. "I still have him. He always takes a bath with me." I chuckled sadly. "Do you remember when I first got into a go-kart? It was my very first time, and it was sprinkling that day. I insisted we continue though, wanting to get a water experience. I remember it was the first lap around, and I already ended up crashing the kart." I laughed through the tears. "There was so many good memories. So many." I whispered, holding her hand to my head. 

I sobbed quietly, my tears falling on her hand. "I don't want you to be in pain anymore, mom." I whispered. "You don't deserve that. I can't let you suffer anymore. It hurts me too much." I cried, holding her hand a little tighter. "I guess it's time for me to let go." I said, calling the nurse in. "I love you so much mom. I'll see you on the other side." I said, kissing her hand. The nurse went to the side, looking at me. I nodded, holding her hand again. The nurse unplugged the machine, walking out afterwards. The monitor started beeping, before it went flat. The long, cruel beep was heard, making me sob out on her hand. "I'm sorry." I whispered repeatedly. I stayed there for a little, before I had to leave. I sat in the office, signing the papers for everything. I finished all the paperwork, taking all of her belongings.