Chapter 10

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*Zariah's POV*
I opened my eyes and blinked a few times. Dez was still asleep. We were now facing each other. I can't believe we were actually sitting on the couch last night making out. I even shared a bed with her. I slept in her clothes. They smell like her. I laid there staring at her like an idiot just smiling. I cuddled up tighter never wanting this cuddle to end.

"Good Morning" she smirked

"Good morning" I smiled

"Have fun" she asked

"I did" I lightly danced my fingers over her lips

"So how was night one of experiencing something gay" She asked

"I liked it but I don't know if I'd like to do anymore with a girl" I sighed

"We take this at your pace" she smiled " on some friend shit" she laughed

"Yeah some friend shit" I smiled

"I just want to lay here and cuddle with you" She smiled

"I know but I told Jahmil and Kenzie I'd hang out with them. They are taking breaks from their new relationships to bless me with their presence" I sat up

"Have fun" she pulled the covers back up over her head

"You got work" I asked

"Nah" she mumbled into the cover

"These little experiments,,," I stopped

"Hey" she opened her eyes and smiled at me "it doesn't mean anything"

"Right. Im going to go take a shower. Mind" I asked

"Washcloths and stuff in my closet. Body wash in there we use them same kind" She laid back down

I grabbed everything and showered. I walked back out just in my towel.

"It hit me while in the shower. I don't have clothes" I laughed

"Hold on" Dez got up and went through her closet and her drawers.
"Here freshpack of undies, and you can wear my old adidas track suit. It don't fit" She laughed

"Why do you have unopened bikini style underwear" I asked

"I cant wear a pad in boxers so I gotta wear the regular shits" She laughed "before I started using tampons that is"
Sometimes I forget Dez is a girl too. I collected everything she handed me and headed back into the bathroom to get dressed. As I was I heard a knock on the door. I opened it

"Yeah" I asked

"You look some kind of sexy in my clothes" Dez chuckled "I brought you a toothbrush"

"Oh I get my own toothbrush so soon" I smirked

"On some friend shit" she laughed

I took the toothbrush and used her toothpaste then I walked out. She was sitting on the bed in just her bra and boxers. It really began to hit me. Dez is a woman just like me. And I like her. Okay I like Dez. A woman. But I don't like women.

"Catch you later" she smiled

"I'll text you" I smiled. I wanted to give her a kiss bye but I decided against it. I grabbed my stuff and walked out to my car. I drove off and headed towards the diner. I pulled up and parked right next to Jahmil. I walked in and he and  Kenzie were already seated.

"Hey" I joined them

"Girl you got the I fucked glow where you been" Jahmil asked

"I didn't fuck" I rolled my eyes

"But you were with someone" Kenzie asked

"Dez"

"Where has she been. It's been weeks"

"I kissed her after dinner. It was awkward and we avoided each other" I shrugged

"Are y'all dating" Jahmil asked

"I told her it was a mistake and I wasn't thinking clearly" I sighed

"So y'all worked it out" Kenzie asked

"Like it never happened" I smiled

"Did you like it" Jahmil asked

"Nope I like men" I laughed

"I know that's right. I want to thank Dez for introducing me to Korey" Kenzie smiled

"What about Vegas" I raised an eyebrow

"He can kiss it" she rolled her eyes

"Man can't do right" I shook my head

"Well me and Kyrie are getting along well. I feel bad Z. Date Dez" He laughed

"Im straight" I shook my head "the kiss confirmed it"
Lying ass. That kissed confirmed you like Dez.

"At least you tried" Jahmil laughed "the way you were looking at Dez could've fooled me"

"Whatever" I rolled my eyes 
I got a text message from Dez
Dez✨⚡️: You coming back over
Me: Miss me already
Dez✨⚡️: miss those soft lips and acrylic nails on my face
Me: you're so gay
Dez✨⚡️: but you're blushing
Me: I won't be back today sorry 😘
Dez✨⚡️: nah I want a real one. On some friend shit

I laughed and put my phone away.

"That dez" Kenzie asked

"Why" I asked

"It was" Jahmil laughed

"If y'all are fucking it's none of our business. You grown" Kenzie smirked

"Jahmil wants me to try it. You didn't but now you're okay with it" I asked

"I didn't want her pushing since you're straight but girl straight is a flexible word these days" she laughed

"Very funny" I rolled my eyes
I am straight. What happens with Dez doesn't change that. I don't like women. I'm not even sure what it is about Dez. I forget shes a woman at times so that means Im not gay. Im attracted to her because she's masculine. In fact im not attracted to her. Im attracted to her masculinity. Im not gay

We finished up eating and I went home. Once I got home I checked my phone
BoyBestie💚🖤: Those are Dez clothes. Even if y'all aren't fucking as y'all say be careful. Sexuality is confusing and its a journey. If you want to talk Im here. Don't feel the need to label yourself at all or before you're ready
Me; ❤️ how sweet of you

"Hello my darling" Nan walked in the kitchen

"Hey Nan" I smiled

"New clothes" She asked

"These are a friend's. I slept at her place last night and she let me borrow some clothes" I smiled "im ready to go get in my own clothes though"

"You seem so much happier than you were for the past few weeks" she smiled "this new friend does you good"

"Yeah she's pretty cool" I smiled

"Why haven't I met her" she asked

"Her parents are dead. She has a thing about meeting parents or in my case grandmother" I sighed

"Bless her heart" Nan smiled and placed a loving touch on my arm

"Im working with her on the grief thing. Since we have that in common" I shrugged

"Glad to see you more considered with making friends instead of chasing true love"

"Good friends make the world go round" I smiled

"Proud of you Zbee" She smiled and walked off
Nan how could I tell you. I think I'm in love with my new friend. Nan wouldn't care that Dez is a woman. I'm not sure if they'd care at all. I'm not gay so it doesn't matter. Im just experimenting

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