she holds her breath
watching her body moving
while her soul is sinking
trying to have enough air to live
she's under water
going deeper and faster
she's stopped searching for a float
it's been two year and she loses hope
so she just waits
she waits while she's sinking
but she never touches the ground
'cause she still needs to saved them
she's not living she tries to survive
but sometimes she's lost in this water
so she swims in every direction
without knowing where she is
the water is cold
she won't stop hurting her
but she acts like she don't
until she loses control
the wait is always worthy
'cause he shows up with a rope
and pull her out of the water
her soul have her puff of air
she's out and try to not care
there still have the water but keep her head up
she have this real smile for the first time in a while
she breath
but all goods things come to an end
and she knows what come after
she's not prepared
but she jumps and...
february, 11th 2022.
-el :)
