starting over

Chapter 5

Maya's POV:

I ran out of the room in tears.

They don't understand me. Don't understand what I'm going through.

I don't need their freaking pitty.

Oh the poor maya with no parents who love her. Oh poor maya whose mother was an alcoholic. Blah blah blah.

I ran downstairs and Cory and Topanga look at me worried.

"Honey, what happened?" Topanga walks towards me.

"Just get out of my way" I say and run towards the door.

I don't know where I'm going.

It's just this whole sadness.

-

I'm in the park now. I sit on a bench and burry my face in my hands.

I know that I always complained about my mom but she's after all my mother. This is hard on me.

It's still feels like I never had parents at all. But it's different now. All of them are really gone now.

I haven't been to the house since I found her there.

Mr and Mrs Matthews found out what happened that day and took me with them.

Suddenly I hear people shouting.

"Where is she??" A girls says.

"I don't know! We need to find her"

Riley and Lucas. Oh no.

I look around and run out of the park.

I know where I have to go now.

-

I open the door and walk slowly in.

Silence.

I still can smell the alcohol around here.

I walk pass the couch and stare at it.

There it was. That's where I found her. Not breathing.

A tear drops down my face and I continue walking through my house.

I go upstairs and open the door to my room.

My things are still here. There's my bed, my table...

Riley mostly gave me clothes this week and my clothes are all here.

They didn't want me to come here. Always when I tried to talk to them about the house they said no.

They said it would be harder for me.

Well no.

My phone starts beeping and it's Lucas.

I don't really wanna talk to anyone now...

Me: What?

Lucas: Oh my god maya. Are you okay?

Me: totally

Lucas: Where are you? Riley and I tried to find you

Me: I'm somewhere

Lucas: Now stop playing games

Me: games? I'm not playing. Maybe I just don't wanna talk

Lucas: Maya I know that you just lost your- -

Me: Don't even start. You don't understand what I feel like

Lucas: oh really? How come?

Me: You're Lucas Friar!

Lucas: and you're Maya Hart! So what?

Me: you didn't let me finish. You're Lucas Friar. The popular and rich kid. You have money and your life is perfect. You don't understand me at all.

Lucas: what the hell are you talking about? Just because someone has money doesn't mean that they have no problems!

Me: just leave me alone now.

Lucas: Maya no! I'm your boyfriend after all. I wanna be there for you.

Me: bye lucas

Lucas: maya stop it!

That's when I hung up.