Let's be honest
I write all the sappy love shit
I write about how love is fake
And doesn't mean shit
Come on
Let's be honest
I have a negative connotation on love
So much
That I'm actually happy
When a guy gives me bread crumbs
I think love
Is supposed to hurt
I have this idea that
Your supposed to work
And go through pain
Your supposed to accept that
Sometimes it's going to be like this....
Every. Single. Day.
Let's be honest
Maybe I do self sabotage
I'm so used to being used and replaced
That when something good actually
Comes my way
I mess it up
And it blows up right in my face
I talk about my anger
An how that is the problem
In the equation of love but
Let's be honest
Let's be real
It's the negativity and
Preparing for the worst thats actually
The thing that kills
Ends up sabotaging love in itself
I speak so negatively
As soon as there's an inconvenience
I'm already prepared for the break up
"It'll never get better"
"Your gonna break up with me"
"Do you still love me?"
Begging for validation
All the time
Making myself look weak
Asking what can I do
To make you want me
Ooh
Maybe I should buy you this
Spend the last bit of money I have
Just to shower you with gifts
I have problems
Always thinking
Wondering
When you'll get tired of my shit
Constantly wondering
When will you stop putting up with it?
Crazy thing is
You probably think that we're good
That
We're alright
But because you forgot to call me
Two times
Yesterday and tonight
I go berserk
I get angry
Crying
Wondering
Am I annoying?
Why doesn't he wanna call me?
Is it that time?
Then I let overthinking ruin it again
Maybe we're just having a rough time
It'll be back to Normal again...
Or will it?
"Babe can you call me?"
"Hey it's been another night, are you ignoring me?"
"Finally you answered! You see this is a problem it needs to be fixed!"
And just like that he doesn't want to call
Ever again
I think I need to chill out
If he's been a real good boyfriend
I need to just try and not get so loud
And get frustrated All the time
