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All the things i did, just so i could call you mine- david fan fic

Attempted suicide and suicide thought

"Don't you fucking understand?" He screamed at me down the empty cave that had only the two of us in.

"I don't give a fuck" he shouted again.

David had always seemed to wasn't to argue, every small thing he argued about.

Last year I dropped my whole family for him as they wouldn't accept how much I loved him, he killed them in front of me ( my older brother who protected me more than anyone, my drunken father and my Ill mother and younger sister who I treasured and cared for more than anyone).

David means a lot to me, but all the things he did and how much I had to give up- my home, my career, my family and friends, my identity, my living self, my favourite foods that I should no longer want to survive, the things I had at home I treasured- everything.

"You don't know what you have done to me" I mumbled as tears feel down my face, it's not likely any form of the dead can cry- I've never seen it or felt any form of pain until now- he clearly felt what I was feeling from his grief and regret that plastered on his former vampire face.

"You don't under what I had to give up, I gave up everything to be with you, I had a perfect life with everything I wanted" I cried as he just stood there.

"We all have things we have to give up at some point."

"No David!, you killed my family and friends, you ended my life and burned down my house with everything I treasured inside including my family and the people I love dying quickly from the poison you placed into their body as you fed on their souls, I had everything, and it was all gone in the space of seconds from the one person I treasured and trusted the most not to hurt me." I screamed.

"Y/n" he spoke softly.

"I don't want to hear it, no matter what you do I can't forget the face my brother and mam pulled when they knew you and I would be the last faces they will ever see, I can't do that David, it's all I think about" I cried.

"I'm sorry" he mumbled, that was the first time he ever said that.

"Your never sorry for what you do, because all you care about is yourself" i sniffled and wiped my tears quickly, before walking out of the cave as David froze in the position he was in earlier before I poured half my heart out to him.

"It's because I love you, I want to be the only person you love, the one person you can look for when you wake up- the one person you love on the planet because I have nobody but you. I may be horrible and hard to be with, but I can't do this without you and I didn't know how much it would hurt you, I'm sorry" he begged me in my head as I walked as far as I could, far and far away.

Because no matter how much I love David it seemed that all I truly wanted was to be with people who didn't hurt me, where I couldn't be hurt- to be numb, forever.

And that was it, this was going to be the end of my vampire life, my immortality should be tested because I'm sure it's not completely true.

"No matter the day or the time, the hour or minute, I'll always love you. Because truly your all I have, and all I need.
No matter the food or drink or company, I don't feel like I need anything. Other than you. And I'll always love you and I'll always be here, but I truly did, fall too hard."

After I spoke through his kind, I stepped off the cave cliff and towards the sea, not stopping or begging for my life to be saved.

I closed my eyes, before I knew it the wind was strong, and the clouds where with me, I was being held, by heaven, or sinking to hell.

Or maybe it was the devil, or an angel, or whatever it was had captured me, and I dare open my eyes to see where it was leading me, positive or negative- nobody could know because It was like my eyes where glued shut.

"Your not dead if that what your hoping" I heard a voice say out loud. I groaned.

"Did you really have to David" i groaned

" I can save you, because I'll always save you- only you, forever"