Smile For The Camera ~ Dabi x Hawks💙🧡

A Trip To The Hospital

POV HAWKS

I don't know how long it's been. I haven't been able to grasp any concepts like time, curiosity, or ability since I lost my wings. The only idea circulating in my mind is Touya's presence; if he's not here with me, I'll die. Simple as that. So as the TV portrays flashy pictures of kiddush cartoons, I lay curled up on Touya's chest, listening to his heartbeat. "Keigo," he says softly. "Time to get up and eat."

I shake my head. "Not hungry." What's hunger, again? The longing for food? Sounds foreign.

"I texted your bunny friend," Touya says. "She's gonna bring over some chicken nuggets for you."

My body tenses, and I shake my head again. "Don't let her inside," I choke out, grabbing onto Touya. I dig my nails into his forearm, pulling him closer to me. "She- Touya, you can't let her inside! She's gonna- he- E-En..."

"Shh..." Touya says, pulling me to his chest. I sit on his lap, burying my head into his collarbone. "It's Mirko, your friend, remember? She's on your side. She's gonna come and bring you your favorite food so you can stay healthy."

"I don't–" The words are backed up in my throat, and it's unbelievably painful to choke them out. "Tr-trust her! She's gonna br-bring Endeavor, and... I don't want to..." I'm transported to Endeavor's basement where the only light in the room is his hungry flames. The smell of dust and damp cement fills my nose, and added to it is the smell of my burning feathers. I scream for Touya, hoping he'll come and save me, but he doesn't. It's just Endeavor. He dives at me, holding me by the throat. I'm screaming and kicking and crying, begging him to spare me. I tell him I'll be good, that I won't act up, but it's not enough for him. He takes and takes and takes until I'm reduced to nothing, until I'm a pile of worthlessness on the floor.  Then there's the flash of a camera and all goes dark.

I wake up in a car, curled up in Touya's lap. I jerk upward immediately as the realization kicks in, grabbing onto his shirt and digging my head into his chest. Touya wraps his arms around me, but I still feel vulnerable without my wings. "Home," I mutter, tightening my grip. "W-we have to go home..."

"I'm right here, baby bird," Touya says, rubbing my back. "You're safe."

"No," I choke out. I can feel Touya's blood under my fingernails, but I don't let go. I can't. There will never be a time where it's safe enough to release him. Endeavor is out there, lurking, watching me. I can't go through that pain again. "Please," I whisper, squeezing my eyes shut. "Please."

"I'm sorry," Touya says, his voice shaking a bit. "We're almost there. Just keep breathing, and you'll be okay."

The car stops a few minutes later, but I'm not focused on the time. Touya helps me out of the car, adjusting my hands so they're not peeling his skin open. My knees are weak below me; I've haven't walked in days. Has it been days? I'm not sure. It's been long enough that the natural light of the outside world makes me dizzy. I keep my eyes closed as Touya guides me into the building. I don't know what's happening nor do I want to know. I just want to be alone. With Touya.

"Keigo," Touya says, gently pulling my hands off of him. Panic rises in my throat as he steps back. "Keigo, you have to let go."

"No," I growl, fighting back the tears in my eyes. "Fuck, Touya, come back! Come back! I'm scared!" Hands wrap around my arms, tugging me away. I kick and scream, seeing flashes of Endeavor in the basement and the bathroom. "LET ME GO!" I cry out. "TOUYA! Touya, please! Please! Don't leave! You- you promised! You fucking promised!"

"I know," he whispers. "I know, I'm sorry. You'll be okay. I'll be right here waiting for you."

The hands take me away to a pastel painted room and seat me in a beanbag chair. I blink away my tears, feeling exposed and vulnerable. My eyes dart around the room, searching for danger, while my heart lurches up to my throat. I can't fucking breathe. I don't know where I am.