Sciarra P.O.V
It was finally Thursday and I was thankful that the school week was almost over. This first week of school has been like my own personal hell. Hannah wouldn't stop the rude comments, I felt dead inside. It felt like God was finally punishing me for what happened in my past. Justin and Hannah were like their own gang. And I was the rival gang. Everyday it was the same thing with them. The whispers behind my back. Calling me a whore, a slut, a bitch, a cunt, the list went on and on. I would be better off dead.
I finished getting ready for hell, blinking away the tears that threatened to spill. Justin slept over again, and I knew that when I walk down those stairs, he'll be there. He's so different when he isn't around Hannah. Last night, he gave me a warm smile. He's confusing, too confusing. I pulled the box filled with our memories from underneath my bed, and opened it. My eyes stopped when I saw the one picture I never wanted to see again. I thought I threw it away. It was a picture of our last night together. It was just the sheets covering our naked bodies. Him kissing my forehead, me smiling.
I quickly pushed the box to the side, biting my lip down, so I wouldn't scream as the pain hit me. I didn't deserve this. Bree tells me to let go, but I can't. They all know why I can't let go. I can't forget him because he's everywhere. I just need him back in my life. I need the old Justin back. This isn't him. I can't lose him.
I slowly lifted my body from my bed, my knees shaking. I felt so weak. I looked into the mirror, sighing deeply. I was wearing a gray sweatshirt, black skinny jeans, and black TOMs. I managed to curl my hair and do my makeup. But this was all for show. To show people that I was "happy." When really, I was dying inside.
I checked my iPhone, seeing that it was almost six o'clock. I got up earlier than usual, I just couldn't see Justin. I walked down the stairs, carefully trying to not make any noise. I walked into the kitchen, flicking on the light. I was actually happy that Justin wasn't awake. It would've made my morning terrible. I opened up the fridge grabbing and apple and a water bottle.
"What are you doing up so early?" I froze, my heart dropping as I heard his sleepy voice, He sounded so much younger. I wish I could go back in time and enjoy our beautiful moments together again. "I have things I have to do." I told him, shutting the fridge door. "Like what?" He asked, walking towards me. "Not you." I said, smirking a bit.
"That's not what you used to say when we were dating." When we were dating. I coughed, ignoring the ache in my chest. "We had sex once and then you left." I reminded him, trying to hide the pain that so desperately wanted to show. "You loved every second of it." I did, but I wasn't going to admit it.
"Maybe I did or maybe I didn't. All I know now is that it was the biggest mistake of my life." My eyes widened as the words slipped out of my mouth. I saw the quick look of pain etched on his face before his lips curled into a grin. "Hannah fucks me better." My lungs gave out. And I felt the tears brim my eyes. I slammed the water bottle onto the table along with the apple. I quickly grabbed my keys, the tears already flowing down my cheeks "Cici I'm-" I shook my head.
"I should've never fallen in love with you. It was the worst mistake I have ever done. Have fun with your slut." I coldly said to him. I quickly walked out the door, not looking back.
I opened my car door quickly, slamming the door behind me. I sat in my car, just letting the tears fall. He couldn't of meant it. We made love, all they do is fuck. Oh god, please Justin please don't mean. I was falling apart. The tears at this point were uncontrollable. I took in a deep breathe. I jumped when I heard a door close. I saw Ryan and Justin walking towards Justin's car.
I took one last look at Justin, my soul was being ripped apart. I fell in love with him and I've never stopped loving him.
I arrived at school, seeing Brianna talking to two very familiar figures. I realized that it was my old best guy friend Alex and his girlfriend Jenna. I quickly re did my make up, covering my red cheeks and swollen eyes. I quickly got out of my car, grabbing my book bag. I quickly walked over towards Alex, happy to see my best friend again. "Alex!" I yelled out happily, wrapping my arms tightly around his neck.
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Secrets
ФанфикIt's been two years since Sciarra has seen Justin. He left her, breaking all of his promises. He left her when she was dealing with her inner demons. When he comes back to finish his senior year, she has a secret that could either make Justin hate h...