One-hundred Sleepless Nights (Vic Fuentes is my dad)

Chapter 40

Black.

Everyone was wearing black while we heard the sound of sobs.

I sat in the front row, staring at the casket sitting in front of me.

Vic sat on one side of me and Alex sat on the other side.

"Now one more person will speak before the father and brother speaks and we have the burial ceremony. Austin." The paster says and I stand up.

He hands me the mic and I sigh.

"Alli was a beautiful person, but she was also a broken person." I say then pause.

"She wanted to die with a strong passion, but I wouldn't let her. I loved her with my entire heart." I say into the mic.

"The last conversation that I had with her, she told me that she didn't want to go on tour with us. I asked her why and she said that she didn't want to keep moving everywhere. That she was tired of it but she didn't want to make a fuss about it and she was just gonna go. I was gonna let her stay unhappy..." I say.

"But in reality she was always unhappy. She would stop eating. Start hurting herself. All because this beautiful, beautiful girl didn't think she was beautiful. She thought she was the exact opposite and that breaks my heart." I say, letting a tear fall.

"I will never be able to forget about her. She was my life. My happiness. My heart. My heart is going to be burried with her, because she always had my heart. I'm gonna miss her so much... I'm gonna miss her beautiful blonde hair that I could run my fingers through. I'm gonna miss her piercing blue eyes that I could stare in for hours. I'm gonna miss holding her small body against my chest. But most of all, I'm gonna miss her voice, because her voice was one thing that made ME feel better. She lit up my world... And I'm gonna miss her so much... I say, looking at the casket.

"I didn't know her my whole life, and I'd be lying if I said that I knew everything about her, but I knew more then anyone else, and I do know that. She had secrets. Secrets that caused her a lot of problems. but she didnt deserve this... She didn't deserve any of this. She was the most beautiful person I had ever layed my eyes on. She deserved the world. She didn't deserve to die at such a young age, leaving behind so many people that loved her. I will never find someone like her again and she was all i wanted." I say, then sit down, handing the mic to Vic.

"She was my daughter... I knew she was suicidal and I always thought that if i was gonna lose her, it would have been through suicide, not like this..."

"I only knew about her for a few months, but those months were the best of my life. She was my baby girl and I don't... I dont understand why she had to be riped from my arms... This tour, that we put to the side, will happen and it will be dedicated to her." Vic says, then hands the mic to Alex.

he stays silent for a moment before speaking, "Like Vic, I only knew her for a few months, but she was my sister. we had been through everything together, while being apart. From Bryan, to finding out our father was a rock star. No matter how long I knew about her, she was always my sister. She will always be my sister. No matter what. Me and my family, including people that aren't technically related, are getting her name tattooed and anyone here is welcome to join us..." Alex says, then sits down.

"We will move on to the cemetary." the paster says and everyone stands up, walking to the cemetary across the street.

We have the burial ceremony and once its just me, Alan, Vic, and Alex I let the tears fall along with the others.

"It's all my fault... I'm so sorry Vic..." i whisper.

"It isn't your fault Aus..." he says, rubbing my back.

I stay silent, looking at her stone sitting in front of me, memorizing ever detail.

"Austin, I've gotta go. Call me if you need me." Alan says, standing up and giving me a hug before going to his car and driving away.

After a while Vic and Alex leave too, leaving me alone with the love of my life.

"I need you Al. I can't... I can't do this without you..." i whisper and a breeze of wind blows by me, making me smile.

"I love you..." I whisper, and feel another breeze, making me smile again.

I stay silent for a few minutes then stand up, kiss my hand and hold it against the stone.

"I'll be back again. goodbye beautiful..." I whisper, before standing up and walking away.

A/N yes this is the end of the book. i might right a epilogue but if not, thank you guys so much for reading it. I realize some of you might be mad at me for ending it like I did, but I've been planning on ending it like this for a while. Again, thank you so much. I love you!

-Alli (that's my name for those of you who didnt know)