Hey, Um sorry for not really updating and stuff Ive been extemely busy with school and stuff at home.
Everything.. has been going okay.. I guess you could say.
Ive been having my ups and downs with boys, grades, home life, softball, my mom..again, friends.
I'm trying.. I really am. I feel like I'm failing in life.
I had just barely ogt my grades up to a 3.0 and i still dont understand that because I have 2 D's.
Me and my mom have been arguing a lot more.
Ive been stuck on DaShuan and still havent moved on but, theres this guy Sean and he liked me. I didnt like him at first but, after a while i liked him back. Turns out he moved on a while ago and I lost my chance of getting over DaShaun.
Then if you remember Jayden.. we absolutely fucking hate each other. Like we will never ever be friends. He talks the most shit about me when I'm not around. I cannot stand liars. Most of all I cannot stand people who talk about other peoples insecurities. You're probably like "oh why do you even care if he talks about you??" To be fucking honest, I didn't care. I let him talk all the shit he wanted and I never said a WORD about or to him. I let him talk about me. I let him talk about my weight. I let him talk about the way I look. My insecurities. Everything.
But, one day he crossed the fucking line. He said to a group of people "The girl I can't stand the most, can't even catch the ball.'
He was refering to my softball skills.
COME AGAIN BITCH?! COME AGAIN. I KNOW YOU ARE NOT TALKING ABOUT THE ONE THING THAT I FEEL I'M GOOD AT. THE ONE THING THAT MAKES ME FEEL SO HAPPY INSIDE. THE ONE THING I CAN RELY ON TO PUT ME IN A BETTER MOOD.WHILE OTHER PEOPLE ARE GETTING HIGH. IM PLAYING SOFTBALL. SOFTBALL IS MY FUCKING HIGH. YOU JUDGE ME OFF ONE FUCKING GAME. AND ALL OF A SUDDEN "I CAN'T EVEN CATCH THE BALL" BITCHHHH. NIGGAAAA. WHO ARE YOU TALKING SHIT ABOUT?! MAY I REMIND YOU THAT WE HAVE NO SENIORS IN OUR SCHOOL? MAY I REMIND YOU THAT ALL OF OUR SPORTS TEAMS CONSISTS OF FRESHMEN, SOPHMORES, AND JUNIORS ONLY?!?!?? MAY I REMIND YOU THAT MOETHAN HALF OF THESE PEOPLE ON OUR VARSITY TEAM HAVE NO EXPIRIENCE WHATSOEVER? MAY I REMIND YOU THAT, THE SCHOOL WE PLAYED IS IN THE TOP 5 IN THE COUNTY. SO. WHY ARE YOU TALKING SHIT? WE ARE TRYING OUR HARDEST AND ITS IGNORNT BITCHASS NIGGAS LIKE YOU THAT CAUSE US TO FEEL BAD ABOUT OUR TEAMS. INSTEAD OF SUPPORTING US, YOURE BRINGING US DOWN. DO YOU PLAY A SPORT? NO, YOU FUCKING DONT SO, YOU DONT EVEN HAVE FUCKING ROOM TO TALK. FUCK YOU JAYDEN. HOW FUCKING DARE YOU TALK SHIT ABOUT MY LIFE. YOU CAN'T JUST WATCH ONE BAD GAME AND FUCKING ASSUME THATS HOW I PLAY EVERYDAY. YOU GOT ME ALL THE WAYFUCKED UP. GOD, I FUCKING HATE YOU SO MUCH..
Please excuse my vulgular language. I don't even conclude this as half a rant about Jayden to be honest.
I'm pretty much gonna end this for right now. I'm too pissed to even continue.
