Hey.
So.. Heres the story.
The next day, after the day of the kiss Dashuan said messaged me on kik .
I was happy to hear from him because I havent heard from him since the night of the kiss. (We would message all the time).
He said we had to talk.
I asked if it was bad.
He said yes.
At that moment I knew what it was about... I knew he was going to say something bad, and I would cry.
He said he didnt have feelings for me anymore.
When I read that message my world stopped.
I felt like I had stopped breathing.
I didnt know whether to cry, or write out my feelings..
I cried of course.
I didnt eat dinner.
I went to bed early.
I slept and layed in bed throughout most of the day.
My heart was broken..
I thought everything was fine between us.
I thought he liked me.
The kiss to me was so amazing.
When people say their first kiss is passionate.
I didnt know what they meant because i never had my first kiss..
Until then.. and i felt what they were talking about.
My mom came in my room and made me get out of bed.
Crazy thing is.. I had JUST told her about that kiss the day he dropped me.(Before he said he didnt have feelings for me anymore).
You all may be thinking, "Well, it wasnt a break-up so why are you so sad?"
I'm sad because I never really had attention from guys before.
Especially an attractive one.
And he was my first kiss.
It's as simple as that.
He was my second heartbreak.
On a better note, I"m completely over him. I do look at him every once in awhile but, my feelings for him are gone. Which is good.
I do wish we could still be friends but, Im not texting him first. Im giving him space and, I dont want him thinking I still have feelings for him or whatever.
But, yeah.
