The story of us

Six

Trepidation

(Noun)

- A feeling of fear or anxiety about something that may happen

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I woke up in my own bed. In my own house. I couldn't remember the time I was lying unconscious in my bed. And the best thing was is that I wasn't alone, I had Luke there with me. Sometime I argue with myself that this is all a dream and that someone like me doesn't deserve someone as good as him, but then I manage to bring myself back down to reality and the fact that it is real makes me extremely happy. His head emerged from the duvet, his hair was all messy and cute, and I glanced into his blue eyes which seemed endless, like the ocean. 'Good morning beautiful, how are you?' And before I got the chance to reply I was vomiting in the bathroom. Luke ran after me with a hair tie to tie back my hair and patted my back reassuring me that everything was going to be okay. 'What caused that?' He asked with a look in his eye like he knew the answer to his own question before he asked. 'Will you be okay here if I go and get them?' He asked. ' Yeah i'll just lie on the sofa i'll ring you if it happens again don't worry.' 'Okay, remember I love you I will literally be two minutes.' And with that he ran out the house into his truck.

Two minutes later and he was back with the pregnancy tests in a bag so you couldn't tell what they were. We sat in the bedroom as I unwrapped the test and read the instructions. He took a hold of my hands and looked me in the eye " Ees, no matter what happens we can do this okay? You're not alone. Whatever happens your my girlfriend wait no your more than that. You're my other half and my best friend and no matter what we're going to make it.' He kissed my head as I walked to the bathroom.

Negative. The test came back negative, I walked back into the bedroom and looked at Luke. He looked so empty. 'It was a false alarm.' As he realised I was back in the room he stood up, ran towards me and span me around like a little girl. I've always wanted kids, but I don't think I'm ready yet. I'm so glad the test came back negative because no matter matter how hard we both tried I don't think we could have made it through.

We spent the rest of the day lying in bed watching disney movies because I love them a lot. Something was wrong with Luke. He was being really quiet and i didn't like it. I paused the tv rolled on top of him to block the tv and said ' Lukey baby what's wrong?' His face just fell. He doesn't realise how well I know him. We've only know each other for like 18 years. I suddenly got really anxious and uptight. I could tell it wasn't nothing. ' I've found a lump, and I'm scared.'

My

Face

Fell.