The story of us

Three

Everything is a metaphor blasting through the oblivion of space at a million miles an hour heading slowly towards Earth, heading down to this very country, this very city, this very room. Hitting me; totally demolishing everything in it's wake leaving broken pieces of what was 'my life' everywhere for everyone to see. That's what it feels like to be 'depressed'. Your stuck in a trance that nobody can save you from but yourself however the only way you stand a chance Is to drown the demons in your head but the only way to do that is to separate yourself from what's become of you. Impossible right?

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Luke stayed the night again in my new room on the unit so I didn't get lonely or anything, he left at a about ten because he said he had some 'secret errands' that I couldn't know yet to do before this afternoon. Which left me with a lot of free time to kill alone before the nurses came in and have me more 'drugs'. So I decided to listen to The 1975 which had been one of my favourite bands since I could remember and read a book that Luke picked up from home last night called 'Eleanor and Park' by Rainbow Rowell who was my favourite author of all time.

Hours had past and two albums later Luke came back with a letter for me, he passed the burgundy envelope to me relentlessly as the doctors called him out. I suddenly got an immediate pang of anxiety in my stomach, it smelt really familiar but couldn't put my finger on what the exact smell was. I shakily opened the envelope with much hesitation, it read ' Dear Eesia, I know life hasn't exactly been great for you, with our parents and all these hospital admissions, so just decided to do something special for you. After much arguing with the doctors and nurses they finally agreed to letting me take you put for a few hours thundering for a 'surprise'. I got in contact with Louise and she's coming around at four to help you get ready and stuff so i'll see you at five, love Luke x.' I could feel the butterflies floating around in my stomach. Whenever Luke planned a surprise it was always great. I cannot wait I thought to myself as I lay in the bed of the unit.

Louise showed up at exactly four with bags of makeup and hair stuff and a few outfits for me to choose from. 'How's my favourite person?' She said with great splendor.'I'm doing okay I guess' I replied. 'Good. Let's get you ready for your surprise, you'll love it.' I heaved myself out of bed and into the chair that Luke had been sleeping on, it wasn't even that comfortable. Once she'd finished my makeup which I could have done perfectly by myself she moved onto my hair, she made it all backtated. I looked pretty hot even if I do say so myself. Next it was choosing an outfit, outfit one was black ripped jeans and a nirvana top, outfit two was a skater skirt, flannel matching Luke's and a band tee and outfit three was a place dress with different necklaces. I chose outfit two. I looked good. When give o'clock hit Luke came to pick me up I was right about choosing the flannel as he was wearing the exact same one. His face lit up when he saw me like a child's on Christmas day which made me feel good, he'd seen me look so much worse. 'Wow Ees, you look better that I could have ever imagined, are your ready? I've got.the car out front' 'yeah course, let's go thank you Lou, i'll call you later bye.' We had a long walk to the car as the unit was in the ninth floor and the lift was switched off, he offered to carry me but I rejected it for the first four floors but I was going to pass out so he carried me down the rest, it felt like a fairy tale with his strong muscles under my shoulders comforting me as we went, I was finding it hard to hide the fact I was crazy in love with him.

We drove for what seemed like forever, there was silence in the car but not like an awkward silence you got at school whenever someone was answering a question no one knew the answer to, it was a comfortable silence like we were having our own conversations with each other in our minds. We finally arrived at the secret destination, I wasn't allowed to open my own car door, oh no that was Luke's job. ' Where actually are we?' I asked, he replied with a shrug, 'lets see than shall we?' He took my hand as we walked over the hill to my surprise. It was beautiful. There was fairy lights, and a reflective river it was perfect. Then my eyes caught the table in the middle of the garden, it had a cute jar stuffed with fairy lights surrounded by different scented candles. It was perfect. ' ah no that's my job.' He said as he rushed around the table to pull out my chair for Mr. As we sat down he rang the little rose gold bell that was on the table and instantly the 1975 started to play and a waitres popped out with two chocolate milkshakes with whipped cream and those retro straws I loved. 'Okay?' Luke said as he reached for my hand, I reached out to hold it. 'Okay.' Once we'd finished our milkshakes the waitress brought out a pizza hut box. PIZZA HUT. This made up for all the times I'd cut, and he could tell by the permanent grin on my face. ' Can I ask you something Ees?' He said nervously. 'of course'

' this may come as a shock to you. But I think I love you and I want us to be more than friends. I totally understand if you don't but I guess it was worth a try'

I'd never seen him this nervous before, it was super cute. He felt the same way. This couldn't have gone better. But I need to stay calm. Breathe.

' Luke Hemmings. I do. I love you. Together?'

'Together.'