To my imaginary soulmate

Excuses

I can't find in me, to let you go

I know it's silly, wishing you were still with me

I hate all the songs on the radio that I used to love

Cause every damn line reminds me of us

Everything hurts a little too much

I Wish someone wakes me up to the harsh reality

It's been several months since we've been out of touch

Since the night, last December

You don't seem to care that I'm here collecting the scars

You don't seem to have a broken heart, 

You don't seem to be the one falling apart

Do you remember all the late night drives?

Screaming our hearts out as we passed through street lights

Don't you miss all the things we used to do?

Now it's over, Everything up in blue.

But can you meet at our spot on the coffee shop?

Maybe we should try to figure this out

Try to talk this through

But i know now we're better off as friends

So i promised myself that I was done

I told myself I would never fall again

Though its killing me to say

I hope you are happy without me

on the other side of the city

But I wasn't fooling anyone

But myself

Cause I am here waiting for you phone call

And how could I be so stupid to fall?

You probably think I'm so useless

All i do is give excuses

How many times did I tell you that we were done?

But I need you now more than I needed you then

Got no one to blame but myself

I need to learn how to survive without your help

I told you I'm hurt but you ignored it

I keep lying to myself and say you didn't hear it

Why did i make you a top priority?

Wish I learn from my mistakes

I wish I didn't make them in the first place

But now I know that, that this shit will happen again anyway

-A