ᴏɴᴄᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ

The Party

  Saturday night, I was wearing a long cardigan sweater, a pale green long sleeve, and my black sweats. I was in the living room with Chanyeol who was changing the song on the speaker with his music, it was something around the year two thousands.

It was something like the artists, Justin Timberlake, Chris Brown, Nelly, Etc. I was roaming around Jennie's living room where we are, I saw a few books, CD Discs, An album of the Destiny's Child.

Weird, everything was weird to me.

It was also weird that the fact that it was just me and Chanyeol in the room alone. But I tried to keep my patience to wait for the rest of the group to arrive. Why did I even agreed to come? Maybe because I don't have any friends at all except for my step sister, Lisa. and my sister Alice. I live by my step moms house since my dad married Lisa's mom, before they even knew each other, I knew Lisa Manoban.

I see her with her two friends everyday at school, we never talked or anything. Now it was all weird because we have to act we like each other, especially when she's in the play too! It was all annoying to me but my sister Alice always tell me to not say anything,

But me and Lisa are like cats and dogs, I never tried to like her niether my biological sister. My mother now, who lives alone now but we visit her every weekends. That was the deal my dad made and it was a serious argument.

My mom is not allowed to get us from dad and I didn't made though, my step mom is not practically the one you see in a cindarella stories. She was the opposite, thankfully. She understands us but I don't, she has to earn my respect and I can see she is really trying to catch that from us,

"Where is everybody?" I asked as I swing my shoulders weakly as I stand a few feet away from him in a dim litted room,

"Uh..." He looks behind him to look as he kept changing the music with a push of a button, "Uh, I don't know," He suddenly changed the music into a low-soft vibe kind of beat and started walking slowly towards me, signalling me to walk towards the couch but I stopped onto another shelf full of books and trophies,

"What- Do you like this?" He asked as I stare confuse when I shook my head and got what he meant,

"Yeah it's good," I stole a glance at him before walking towards the shelf and seeing a picture of the girl who was holding a giant fish, she had her front tooth gone and her pony tail was really messy. She looked nine. When I was about to grab it and take a decent look Chanyeol said,

"Do you, Uh. Wanna seat?" I looked behind my to see that he was now sitting on the comfy couch and gesturing me to sit next to him,

"Sure." I took a second to think before I walk towards the couch and sat tensely a little further from him,

He sighed and looked down, "Ro," He said in his deep, manly voice.

"Hm?" I hesitately looked at him and nervously fiddling with my fingers,

"You know..." He smoothly slide beside me more closer that our knees was touching. I felt my muscle tense from the sudden contact,

I don't like where this is going.

"You know...I...I really like you right?" He glared at me with passion and rising his hand to touch my hair then resting his arm behind me,

I awkwardly smile and chuckled, "Yeah I...I like you too," I nodded and everything happened so fast. He shifted forward closer and leaning to take my lips into his but I kept backing away until I hit the back of the couch, I made a move to push him from me with my hand on his shoulder slightly.

"Uh, Chanyeol wait," I grunted and pushed him to pause but he leaned again quickly but I forced him backwards again however I did it with more energy and made a halt to him, "Chanyeol Wait!" I whispered and pushed him but he kept leaning in until I heard someone from outside of the living room,

"Hey!" Chanyeol shocked and looked behind him to see Jennie by the side of the wall. Chanyeol practically scratch his forehead and backed away to sit properly as I did,

She looked back and forth between us as I gave her a worried, more like a frightened look. I saw a few people behind her waiting, "We're taking a food run, Rosie you wanna come?" Jennie gestured me, hoping that I should come. "Sure." I quickly replied and getting up from the low couch to practically run away as the group followed me,

"Come on, and Chanyeol why wont you get a life while we're gone," She gave him a disgusted look and walking behind me.

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  The next day, I was at my moms house to sleep. I walked towards her room and closed the door behind me, "Mom are you up?" I whispered as I drag my feet towards her lonely bed, "Yeah..." She whispers back and stuffed her head in the sheets further. I walked on the side of her bed and grab a piece of clothing to play with, "Cus...it's eleven," I sing-song and stealing a glance at her,

"Oh...Oh Are you kidding?" She sat up steadily and rubbing her face with her hands. I tilt my head and walking to the other side of her bed and sat. She sighs and sniffs, I pushed a few strands of my hair back to my ear a few times when she poked my shoulder, "Did you have a good time last night?"

"Yeah I guess," I said with my joyful voice and looked down. I felt her getting off the sheets and sitting beside me,

"So how'd that made you feel?" She got up and grabbed her robe from the chair,

"I felt fine about it," I sadly replied wehn I heard her sigh and wearing her robe. I know she could smell the lie beneath me, it was like she has a fifth sense or maybe she just know because she's my mother,

"Rosie," She shakes her head, " You know you can't let anybody pressure you into doing-"

"No...Mom...I was suppose to want when I," I stopped and felt my tears trckling down on my cheeks,

She gave me a frown grin, " Oh, that's a...really tough question isn't it?--" "--I think you'd want to when you're ready,"

I looked down and chuckled blackly, "What if i'm never ready, am I just a freak?" The tears fell finally and I let them, I saw her glaring at me for a second and shaking her head in disapproval,

"Come here," She walks towards me and sat beside my again and hugged me tightly. I never knew this was a serious situation for me, I didn't know she would think it was this easy,

She tilted her head towards my head and stroke it a few times, "If you really are a freak i'm really worried about the rest of the world," She said to make me feel better, which it kinda worked,

"You have to believe in yourself, Ro. You're amazing," I sniffed and closed my eyes as I melt into her embrace,

"You got so much going for you, when the time is right, Okay?" She reassured as I nodded vigorously and hugged her tighter.