ᴏɴᴄᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ

Apologizing

  The play finished. we celebrated at my step mothers house, like all of the students was invited and thankfully they weren't weirded out instead they all came, Lisa congratualated me as I did. Chanyeol came to in my surprise, after the incident, nothing really happened between us anymore. Thank God he moved on quickly, Most of us was still in costume. I watched them enjoy for the night, mostly all of them are in the living room, eating pizza and ice tea that my dad has ordered.

It felt much as normal. I felt myself still empty inside, after what Irene had told me about Jennie's dirty little secret, since I was very new at the school, how could I know. I was still mad at her for not telling me, but then I could hear myself being selfish. guilt crawls back to me, maybe she wasn;t ready yet? I was just running and jumping to conclusions I wasn't suppose to. But Ihad the right to be mad, annoyed, betrayed. i'm being dramatic, we literally just met.

I known her for a week and expected her to tell me? I would do the same.

I felt a tap on my shoulder then turning my head to that direction to see Jennie with a grin. Wearing her usual coat and a red sleeve from inside, why would I care to what she wears?

I was still shocked she was here. "Hey! Surprised?" She enthusiastically announced before I stuttered and licked my lips.

"I-i'll be right back..." I walked pass her and started dragging my feet to the stairs to ignore all of the people. I had no intention to do that at all, it's like my brain was on autopilot.

 "Sweetie- Group photo!" My father called out but I had no time to answer back yet I continued to walk up to the steps.

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  I folded the rest of my clothes and changed into a long dark green sleeve and sweatpants and tied my hair into a messy bun. I could still hear them laughing and talking downstairs. 

I heard knocking from my door. I knoew it was Jennie, I sighed and continued folding clothes. "If your looking for Irene, she's not here." I shouted enough for her to hear, I heard the door opened and saw her walked in slowly with worried expression. 

"I- That's not why i'm here," She kept walking until there was a small distance between us. I didn't looked at her.

  "Why didn't you explained her about the dress? You told me you will." I threw her skirt back to her before she catches it in the air.

 She looked down to the skirt then back at me, "I don't know..." She trailed off 

"Are you afraid of her or something?" I continued and threw her button up shirt back and catches it then bringing it up to her chest.

"No! I-" She sat on the bed but I cut her off. 

"This isn't how I am!" My voice went loud to soft and slowly sat on my study desk so as I was facing her.

She stared at me and looked down ashamed. "What do you mean?"

I stared at the window beside me as I saw droplets of water, turning into a loud rain. I pinched the bridge of my nose and turned to her who was still gazing at my direction.

I inhaled, "Irene is really giving me an impression that- she's acting like that this is just some big contest--" I straightened my posture as I kept my eyes to a bare minimum, making sure I don't land my eyes on her.

"--It's like you have to choose, you can be friends with me but you can't be friends with her and- that is so not I am and it's stupid" I shaked my head and kept waving my hands on the air of my frustration.

"And I just think that we should-"

"I choose you." Jennie suddenly blurted out and made me look at her. I can't read her face yet I feel like I can.

"What?" I whispered before she sat up and walked towards me. Jennie shrugged and sighed,

"I choose you over her." She said again and kept staring at me intensely.

This is wrong. I just told her that this isn't some contest, yet she chose me over her? Why did my heart felt tight, my chest losing oxygen. I found my voice to speak again, "But I don't anyone to choose anybody," I confess. I could see her eyes getting watery but she wiped it away quickly as if I didn't see her crying.

"I know you don't but, I can't help it..." She shrugged again and step in another foot towards me slowly as if it would break the contact.

She slowly rise her pale hand towards me. She looked at me with a promise look as I felt a growing smile on my face, I grab it slowly and felt a jolt of electricity running through my hand up to my arm. She started to stroke the pad of the back of my hand with her thumb surely.

We kept eye contact. Those eyes are really full of emotion, I utterly felt special around her.