Worthy of Love

Chapter Seven

Anaya POV

I woke up feeling uneasy. I couldn't help but think I made a mistake with not giving my 'marriage' a try. I know what Hud said but I married and I should have tried. If I am restless there has to be a reason as to why. I pick up my phone and called my 'husband'

"Asalaamu Alaikum?" I heard.

"Alaikum Salaam" I greeted back.

"Is something the matter?" He asked.

"No I am sorry for calling so early but can we meet?" I asked as I have never had a proper meeting with him.

"Where would you like to meet?" He asked.

"Can we meet at Cafe Startling in an hour?" I asked. He agreed then we said our Salaams. After taking a long and relaxing shower, I prayed then got dressed in a black maxi skirt and purple blouse. I added a dark purple hijaab then went to the cafe. I waited for 5 minutes until he approached me.

"Assalamu Alaikum I'm Amar" He said sitting down

"Alaikum Salaam I am Aniyah" I said taking a sip from my coffee.

"What did you call me here for? I hope it's not to break whatever is left of my heart" He said looking away.

"I wanted to apologize and ask you a few things." I said

"Okay go ahead." He said.

"I am sorry if I was rude or if I hurt you. It was unintentional but because I didn't want this marriage and as I was forced in it, I acted poorly though it doesn't give me the right to." I said

"I didn't know you were forced. I thought you wanted this marriage. When you said you didn't want to meet I didn't know what to think." He said.

"No you were the one who didn't want to meet. You sent the Iman to my house to do the Nikkah book." I said.

"Well there's some confusion here." He said putting his hand through his hair.

"I can tell." I said making him chuckle.

"May I ask you a question?" He said.

"Of course"

"Why did you wish to divorce before seeing the kind of person I am?" He asked.

"I-I don't know how to answer that but that's the reason why we're here" I said

"Explain what you mean." He said.

"I won't lie my actions have been running through my mind for the last couple days and what I decided was that I think we should try to make this work. For both our sakes" I said.

"I agree but I don't want you to feel like you're forced to try." He said.

"I don't this is my choice." I told him.

"Okay how about we go pray a man and wife?" He asked and I agreed. I felt much better knowing he's practicing. We went to the Mosque and prayed together before Allah swt. It gave me a sense of relieve. We decided to read the Qur'an for awhile after finishing we spent some time together so that we could get to know each other.

My phone began to ring so I answered.

"Assalamu Alaikum brother." I greeted.

"Alaikum Salaam where are you?" Ari asked.

"Can you and Ayaan please meet me at the park?" I asked.

"I don't like the feeling of this." He said.

"Don't tell anyone anything just head straight there" I said not wanting Hudaifah to know.

"Allah hafiz see you there" Ari said.

"Allah hafiz" I said then hung up. "Asslamu Alaikum Amar." I said and he greeted back. After sometime driving I reached the park and saw Ari and Ayaan sitting on the swings.

"Salaam children" I said approaching them. After we greeted each other, I told them about my decision and how Amar would get me in a hour.

"Do you feel this is right?" Ayaan asked me.

"I do I've been restless and I couldn't stop thinking until I met with him. I strongly believe this is the right thing to do." I said with absolute certainty.

"If that's what you wish but you'll be the one to tell Hudaifah." Ari said.

"I know let's head home." I said. After we arrived at home I met with Hudaifah.

"I'm going to give my marriage a chance" I said.

"Okay" Hud said.

"Don't try to talk m- wait okay?" I asked.

"I respect what you have chosen" He said walking away. After an hour Amar arrived and Ayaan and I began sobbing as if we'd never see each other again. I didn't know leaving home and my siblings would hurt this bad. Throughout the car ride I couldn't help but feel empty knowing that I wouldn't have Ari and Yani to mess with or read the Qur'an with. I was so lost in thought I didn't hear Amar calling me.

"Anaya we're here" He said opening the door. I got out and stared at mansion in front of me. I was absolutely amazed.

"Are we going to be living here?" I asked him. Our home was huge but this was like a castle.

"Yes we are." He said laughing. We walked inside and saw a little boy and girl and a older woman. I looked at Amar and the little kids and saw a lot of similarities. They looked fairly close and the children did look like her. Only one question came to mind: did he marry me on her?