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Tricks Are For Kids

   Right about now I'm in hermit mode.. I don't want access to anybody and I don't want anybody to have a gateway to me. I can't even think when everyone is all around me. I can see right through their bullshit , their intentions , and what lies underneath the flesh. Shit sometimes I even hear their thoughts. Have you ever looked at somebody and saw their soul? I've seen so many unpretty spirits lying within mortality I don't want no parts of anybody right about now. People make me sick... rightly.

    I've always wanted to run into people who are more like me, but right now I'm alone...not lonely, just alone. In my head only I exist and this is my world. The birds and the bees are who I trust because I know they will always keep my secrets and will never kiss & tell. Life becomes easier that way knowing I don't have to dread anybody or anything. 

   I've come to the realization that whatever situation I'm in , my consciousness is able to manipulate everything around me to free myself from despair. Simply.. Because I'm always good. I'm untouchable. And what I say goes. Mentally and spiritually I'm a fucking beast. So I don't need people around me pretending to fuck with me just to figure me out. Hell , I'm not even done figuring ME out my damn self. So why the fuck would I let a single soul in on my unfinished chapters of my reality. 

Maybe that's what my mystery man is trying to do to me. This guy or this thing could be trying to channel me just to plainly steal my energy. Or maybe even worse he could be trying to kill me. I'm being so naive to the situation just because I'm allured by the thought of my mystery man being some kind of warlock. What does this fucking wizard have that the typical charming 9-5 man doesn't have? Again the strange moth man has trapped me in a whirl of adrenaline that I love so much.. I need more. I need him. 

   I'm far-fetched , I'm mystifying, and I'll only let you know what I want you to perceive of me.. Until it's time for me to disappear again , let's enjoy the ride. I'll breathe life into you until it's time for us to depart, within divine timing. Until either you or I have reached our understanding of why we've met.. And then I must go. With no explanation or fair warning. Just remember my essence. Still forgive me and accept that we both completed our mission on the path that we have met. Don't bother to look for me because I'll be gone on to my next call. Understand I'll always love you but a lesson must always be taught and once we've figured it out ..we could never connect again. 

Though I feel I must double back for my mystery man. It might be the end of him...or me this time.

Kisses and hugs//xoxo . yours truly hoodwinked!