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Sam's point of view down below 👇..

I honestly dont understand what is going on with me I havent felt like this is a long time and i dont think i should feel like this i know i shouldnt be getting attracted but as i see the fear in her eyes a part of me yearns to make it go away

Are you okay  ? I ask in a gentle voice .

She shakes her head yes .

And I realize in that moment how badly I wish to hear her voice just once.

Okay good um if your hungry I made breakfast downstairs .

She gives no response .

You will come with me downstairs and you will eat  do you understand me ? I say

And she shakes her head yes .

I grab her leash and we begin to walk downstairs

When we arrive she stands by the counter why I finish cutting the fruit .

After I finish I make My plate and I make enough for us both .

When she begins to knell I place a hand on her shoulder to stop her

You will sit in my lap . I hear myself say
I am shocked by the words that leave my mouth I tell myself this is only more practical that's the only reason I am doing it but I know I'm lying I yearn to feel her skin I yearn to treat her as if for just a moment she is not below me  to make the pain and fear in her eyes go away if only for a moment.

She sits down gently in my lap and I cant help but not how small she is how the pressure of her body is almost none Existent and that brings me sorrow .

I begin to cut our pancakes up and I give her the first bite which consists of a bite of a  pancake in syrup and a bite of a strawberry

Open I say .

And she does so instantly.

I can tell she likes it even if she makes no movement to show so
I can see by the way she chews that she wishes to have more
I can hear it in how her heartbeat barely picked up
I can sense it

And it pleases me .

I continue to feed her until I see her tense when I bring the next bite to her mouth .

Are you full ? I ask

She simply shakes her head yes .

I look down at the plate and notice she didnt even finish a whole pancake not even a half of one and in total she maybe ate 1 strawberry

Okay but you will be eating again today do you understand?

Once again she simply shakes her head yes .

I keep her on my lap as I begin to eat

My mind cant help but dwell on how good she feels in my lap
I know to not let my mind wander like this but I cant seem to completely control it and I think that I maybe okay with that for only a moment

As I am finishing my food the door opens and in walks mary

I feel my whole body tense
I roll my eyes at the intrusion.

What do you want.?I say with all the gentleness gone from my voice