CARMEN THINKING - THE SOUND INSIDE A SEASHELL PART 1

TIRED

May 6, 2014

When all you have are ashes in your hands

All that remains of your dreams

Your motivation
Your direction
You've fumbled away

And my heart is breaking
Over the smallest things
My heart is breaking

I take the sun out the sky
I kill its light
As I finally admit that my life is going nowhere
As abyss
An emptiness that can't be filled
A small dark room
That's filled to the brim with thoughts
Thoughts so dark it burns the soul
And destroys dreams before you
dream it

And suddenly its quiet
Not quiet enough
Not close enough to death
But close enough to do it for now

I just wish it was over
I just wish I was over
I just wish I was over

How come the treasures die but burdens seem to live forever?

All I have are ashes in my hands

NOTHING EVER GETS ME DOWN... READING PHILIPPIANS 4 V 4

May 6, 2014

People say: "lower your expectations and you won't be disappointed." And
"don't trust anyone, love hurts"...
Well, I'm sorry but I can't live like that, I can't serve God like that.
Not trusting anyone, being skeptical about everything, going on and on about "haters"...
That's played out.
Its exhausting and boring. If my expectations are high and I'm disappointed, I dust myself off and try again.
For I know that: "All things work out for the good to them who love the Lord"

If I trust people and they disappoint me, the problem is with them not with me.
"The prayers of the righteous availeth much"
To me that says: the curses of "barty people" accomplish nothing, nada, zip, Fresca!

People say: "Don't tell anyone about your dreams! Bad luck people will curse your dreams and it won't come true"
But God says in Isaiah 54:17 "No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgment You shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is from Me,"

They say: "Don't share your accomplishments"
Nee huh uh.
If I'm happy, I'm happy and I know it and I really want to show it and I will be happy, I will know it and I will clap my hands!
If there are people who aren't happy for me, too bad for them. I have enough people who love me and are ALWAYS happy for me!

Philippians 4v4 tells me to rejoice always and that I can and will do!
Don't let the devil silence your victory roar by believing in the strength of curses and jealousy over the strength of the Almighty God!

CHANGING WEATHER, UNCHANGING FOOLISHNESS

May 6, 2014

when the sun becomes cold and warmth of the wind surround you
and you look at your life
and you look at these people
and you realize

Real Love
Real Family
Real Friend

Cares first for you and then themselves
I will love who you love because I know if they are happy, you'd be happy...
Surely this concept is not so hard to grasp?

Loyalty even when someone's wrong

Fighting in the name of a selfish love

That's not loyalty
that's not love

when the stars becomes dark and dry raindrops fall on you
and you look at your life
and you look at these people
and you realize

you can't stand united for the purpose of breaking others
and they won't ever understand, accept or support our love...