May 13, 2014
Just to hear your voice
To chase you around the house
To look for my slippers and know you hid them
To look for your bottle and know you hid that too
To say "stop it Arden!"
To hear you sing "hallelujah"
To see you dance
Or try to climb onto the coffee table
I miss my naughty baby
And I can't wait to see her,
Smiling back at me
WAKE ME UP FROM THIS NIGHTMARE... APRIL 6, 2012 AT 1:00AM
May 13, 2014
So I can feel again
I died tonight
A million times
But nothing makes this alright
Every time I look at her little face
I am crying as I thank God for Grace
And still broken
As I ask why
Why Arden?
How could this possibly be?
Covered in bandage
Laying beside me
Not the face of my little girl
A face that brings on the worst pain in my world
You face will heal
You will be you again
But I can never forgive me
HOW DOES A BROKEN HEART SOUND? SHOULD YOU LISTEN?
May 13, 2014
How does a broken heart sound? What do hear when love is knocked to the ground? You can strain your ear. You will never know and will never hear...
It is simple. Happiness has the sound of laughing children in park, of finding light after the dark. While sadness is silence, a hollowness, a bitterness, an emptiness... And yet we make it come alive with our mourning...
Why give a voice to heartbreak, when it deserves none! Why not count blessings? Its much fun.
Try it. Celebrate every good thing. Dance for every little joy. Soon the tears will be forgotten, the hurts colors will pale, and the plan of the devil to depress you, will once again fail...
Rejoice in The Lord
FORGOTTEN AND FORGOTTEN
May 13, 2014
Forget me Replace me you think nothing of me of me.
How beautiful
No longer pitiful
A life imagined without me
Let me die and die and die
And let everyone escape
Let me break free from me so that you can no longer see
And its funny
So funny
The pain I show is minimal
You have no idea what my body has put me through
You can't imagine
It doesn't matter to you
And its okay
Please walk away
Misery is not the fragrance I want share
You are not there
You are not there
And by forgetting me,
I forget me too
I forget the pain
But never you
A STAR IN THE SKY, THE ENTIRE GALAXY, ALBAN
May 13, 2014
It is as though I have never seen a star in the sky and you went and showed me the galaxy...
How do I thank you?
How do I ever love you enough?
My heart grown, it is bigger than it has ever been. You have made me love beyond what I ever knew anyone could love and I realize the love I have for you has no conditions. Even when we don't agree, I still love you, even when times are hard I still like you. And I do like you. I love you as friend, husband, lover, father of my daughter but I like you too. I like you because you are a good man. You are kind. You are funny. You can be so grumpy and yet so loving. You are a perfectionist but you never ever judge. You are smart and you are gorgeous but there is no vanity about you.
You have shown me the galaxy and you smile at me like you have done nothing.
I could never love you enough, but I will try
With everyday God gives me, Alban I will try
YOU ARE READING
CARMEN THINKING - THE SOUND INSIDE A SEASHELL PART 1
PuisiWhen my heart bleeds there is a steady of words pouring out of me... it can heal, it can hurt and nothing can stop the flow Step closer Can you hear it? Can you feel it? Do you understand?
